I could not understand: Why all this self-hatred and fear?
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This is not to say I revel in my self-hatred.
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It's all about sex, and maybe self-hatred, at the start.
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But what is Christmas without a bit of self-hatred, really?
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My lingering self-hatred that comes and goes fell by the wayside.
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Imposter syndrome had stiff competition against my self-hatred at that point.
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It seems, in that end, that self-hatred was her defining feature.
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I like the idea of fucking flagrant self-promotion and self-hatred.
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But the solution to this injustice isn't to wallow in self-hatred.
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"It was just self-hatred," she told the magazine about her suicide attempts.
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The next eight years were a blur of constant intoxication and self-hatred.
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It turned into a looping internal monologue of personal recrimination and self-hatred.
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That's a lot of personal self-hatred and public charade driving U.S. policy.
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I had so much self-hatred and doubt and just guilt for everything.
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There's another module targeting self-hatred, teaching kids to be kinder to themselves.
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As she walks off after this putative triumph, self-hatred distorts her face.
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JS: And I feel that so many women — there's so much self-hatred.
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My self-hatred got so bad that I was fantasizing about being other people.
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Or maybe, the bitter voice of my own self-hatred whispered, I owed him.
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If something promised to fix my self-hatred that easily, why not let it?
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There is boundless pain and self-hatred at the heart of Ms. Pasic's performance.
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I existed inside this despair, self-hatred, and confusion for what felt like hours.
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But there are clearly times when the motivation can turn to self-hatred or worse.
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If you dig Khanate, Thou, or self-hatred, you'd better not sleep on Body Void.
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But Mongillo's uniquely trans performance isn't just about capturing feelings of shame and self-hatred.
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When you start so far behind, the very attempt to catch up breeds self-hatred.
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Some really deep dark thoughts about #thelifeofawannabemogul I talk about abuse, molestation, and self hatred.
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Some really deep dark thoughts about #thelifeofawannabemogul I talk about abuse, molestation, and self hatred.
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Or are you gonna just have a life of emptiness, self-hatred and self-loathing?
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"Everything discussed in it" — hatred, self-hatred, debates about monogamy — "is happening now," he says.
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I suffer from depression and was a model during a particularly rough patch of self hatred.
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Taken out of context, the line sounds stark and depressing, like an admission of self-hatred.
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Extremely low self-esteem and self-hatred is clearly significant enough to smother happiness and growth.
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And that meant I had a lot of self-hatred, too, because I identified as male.
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When you're not committed, you live in a continual state of self-hatred and internal-conflict.
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Safechuck talks about the self-hatred he feels, and his wife recounts his battle with depression.
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One subset of these fakers carve slurs into their own bodies, putting self-hatred on stunning display.
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And by that, he means less suicides, less self-hatred ... and a lot more love and acceptance.
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And Lil' Kim, who's never made her plastic surgery a secret, has also dealt with self-hatred.
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This feeling of self-hatred intensifies every year, around this time, when the sun starts coming out.
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Ms. Leschper writes, in shards and epiphanies, about toxic psychologies: self-hatred, destructive relationships, power struggles, betrayals.
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My scars and past of self-hatred have been covered by loving marks, creativity, ingenuity...and depth.
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The extravagance and explicitness of the self-hatred on display bring it ever closer to self-love.
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The bigger issues—"the self hatred, the guilt, pressure, self-doubt," as she described them to me—remained.
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Perhaps the ugliest legacy of colonialism, though, is self-hatred, passed down from one generation to the next.
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The monologue raises the question: Is Cunanan motivated by self-hatred, a desire to expose hypocrisy, or both?
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His use of homophobic language suggests self-hatred, but his focus on disgrace suggests some kind of crusade.
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Do we know how to live in a purely queer world not defined by resistance or self-hatred?
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I feed off the downward spiral of shame and self-hatred, because it gives me something to strive for.
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Just make sure they are close enough to reality that they don't create whole new patterns of self-hatred.
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This means I understand the deep core of self-hatred which lies at the very heart of Liam Payne.
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" Zauner said of the track, "It sounds like somebody so strong but also filled with so much self-hatred.
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I think enough self-blame and self-hatred have infected my life, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
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What distinguishes Brown from many American artists (mostly men) who depict female nudes is her lack of self-hatred.
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There seems to be an omnipresent population of people who will constantly discount the reality of depression and self-hatred.
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I am consumed with self-hatred and try to push my past online folly into the back of my mind.
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It's just that if he were queer, that volatile self-hatred may have moved outward as fuel behind his motive.
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So in a way it was the most constructive form of self-hatred I could figure out at the time.
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It kept me company at night, diverting my thoughts from self-hatred toward the love of boys I barely knew.
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Self-hatred led to self-medication, until his life, he said, was a cocktail party of morphine, heroin and pills.
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Conason thinks these images are fundamentally flawed because they come from a "place of self-hatred" and encourage toxic dieting culture.
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The X-Men are mutants from around the world, emerging from wealth or poverty, acceptance or rejection, confidence or self-hatred.
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His inability to focus, plan or make decisions, plus his constant self-doubt and self-hatred, step in and stop him.
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Just over half of the 600 respondents said that they were mentally stressed, leading to depression, suicidal tendencies and self-hatred.
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Once she has been broken, we may take her in our arms until the trembling and self-hatred leave her body.
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Before you light up again, have a little forethought and you won't be riddled with self-hatred in a few hours.
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Reading The Bluest Eye is an affirmation that the world is this cruel, but people's cruelty lies in their self-hatred.
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It was a period of growing self-hatred during which she twice tried to end her life by overdosing on sleeping pills.
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On the hardest days, when self-hatred overwhelms, you must hold onto the smallest glimmers of goodness you can find in yourself.
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"It was just self-hatred," she said of taking 20 Motrin tablets and slashing her wrist in June 2013 at age 15.
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Some Queer Eye heroes learn to write nice things about themselves on the wall to combat their internalized self-hatred and shame.
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He played the titular character, a talk show host whose charm barely concealed a bottomless well of self-hatred and self-doubt.
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Hader does something alchemical in the scene: you feel that Barry is drowning in a black lake of yearning and self-hatred.
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Many African-American political activists, especially those with a black nationalist orientation, decried the conk as an illustration of racial self-hatred.
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I had pushed him to say it, wanting to validate my self-hatred, but that's just not how he looks at me.
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It becomes a kind of hatred of our own species and a kind of self-hatred if you take it too far.
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"It was just self-hatred … Low self-esteem, thinking that I couldn't do anything right, not thinking I was worthy of living anymore."
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I got too good at isolating myself, which was not intelligence but more likely the clichéd coexistence of self-hatred and self-obsession.
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I wish I'd spent all of my closeted years of self-hatred turning into a perfect simulation of a masculine, muscular straight guy.
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We meet "masc" bros with deeply internalized homophobia and self-hatred that they smother in wine and MDMA (and Xanax, Ambien, coke, Klonopin).
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He's too drunk, close to a breakdown, and revelling in the self-hatred and the religious anguish that have become his entire personality.
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What did exist for us either illustrated self-hatred (Personal Best, 1982), or was bowdlerized (The Color Purple, 1985), or existed entirely in subtext.
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To deal with what I saw as my "body problem," during my teens and 20s, I turned to bulimia, self-hatred, and excessive exercise.
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For a while (approximately my entire life) I've been under the impression that my self-hatred is well deserved, important, a protective safety measure.
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They're using their influence to teach young people — the ones most inclined to grapple with self-hatred — to start considering what self-love means.
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Recovery Point considers all of this—ways to cope with job skills, life skills, shame, self-hatred, daily emotions—more than most rehab programs.
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The old men who spend all their waking moments trying to veil women are themselves responding to the self-hatred that comes from self-abnegation.
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" Leontire added, "I think that he also came out of a culture that was so negative about gay people that he exhibited some self-hatred.
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When I see her self-hatred, underneath all the talk of healing the inner child and how much progress is being made, it annoys me.
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For about 24 hours, one of the most depressing aspects of German national culture was on display: a sickening mix of hubris and self-hatred.
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Finally, I would fall asleep, only to wake up a few hours later bathed in such intense self-hatred that I couldn't stand my life.
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In Act II, lashing out with wounded pride, he sounds like all the dark voices in our heads, all the self-hatred and self-pity.
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Another flawless record from the PUP boys, but this one wears the anger, aggression, and self-hatred of the last two years as a rough exterior.
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I cycled through more and more drugs trying to tamp down this anxiety and fear and self-hatred, until I ended up with a heroin addiction.
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As a result of its left-wing decadence and self-hatred, Europe fails to realize the threat it faces until the refugee hordes land and pillage.
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They are gay men who commune with the spirit world in order to escape, in part, this world, with its fag-bashing and internalized self-hatred.
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I wanted to show everyone who was wrapped up in self-hatred — whether at 200 lbs or 21 lbs — that they could choose a different path.
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Inside my brain, the relief at not having to face "judgment" was twisted up with self-hatred and fear, along with a perverse sense of defiance.
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The students' antisocial behavior, casual racism, penchant for violence and, worst of all, self-hatred horrify the new teacher, whose colleagues expect little of the pupils.
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The biggest threat here, as I see it, is that you end up feeling a kind of self-hatred for mannerisms that others find off-putting.
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"It was just self-hatred, low self-esteem, thinking that I couldn't do anything right, not thinking I was worthy of living anymore," she told the magazine.
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It has another complex layer when you're raised in an environment of self-hatred, because you're raised that what you are, who you are, is an abomination.
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The effect of this on her: She saw her parents adopt Westernized names instead of using their actual names, and felt self-hatred in the public eye.
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Noah says he transferred his self-hatred to Helen, resenting her as "an idiot" for failing to see him as the loser he believed himself to be.
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Funnily enough, the more hardened qualities in the character truly came naturally, once she did the work of looking at self-hatred and shame as driving forces.
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As Cass points out, each of the women has some reason for self-hatred and guilt, which might explain what they're doing on a possible suicide mission.
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Her comedy couldn't protect her from being the object of hate crimes, or sexual assault, or from growing up with a permanently instilled sense of self-hatred.
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The next day would be centered around the shame of the previous night's behavior, which in turn would propagate a new cycle of self-hatred and criticism.
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They create a schedule so that they can plan to always have someone with Tyler, to protect him from school bullies and from his own self-hatred.
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In the documentary, both men describe struggling with their mental health in adulthood, experiencing depression, anxiety, insomnia, self-isolation, self-hatred, shame, and difficulties in their romantic relationships.
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We'd wrestled with loss and death… became familiar with it, and, for me, occasionally lingered a little too long beneath that warm blanket of self-hatred and isolation.
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She meant her readers to understand death, and degradation, pride and self-hatred, love and all its pale shadows that look like love but ultimately taste of ashes.
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The Blossom matriarch tried to instill self-hatred in her own daughter before she was even out of middle school, all because the tween was attracted to girls.
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My therapist tried to impress upon me that my feelings of being racially othered were a product of an internalized self-hatred that we could fix through psychotherapy.
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Morrison's depiction of women, of motherhood, of misogyny, of hatred and self-hatred within and around race constitutes the foundation of her genius as a writer and thinker.
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It all comes down to which of my present-day dreams is dumber: to completely erase those year of self hatred or simply to have known hope earlier.
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Efforts to parse Mr. Mateen's motivation have revealed strands of Islamist radicalism, bigotry, mental illness and even self-hatred — one possibility being investigated was that he was gay.
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Occasionally, within moments of loneliness, self-hatred, and desperation, we find one another, and for a few minutes can anchor one another in a dark and isolating world.
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I remain convinced that if I "let myself go," I will balloon up — that it is only this struggle, this self-hatred, that keeps my body in check.
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In some cases, intense shame can create dark personality types like narcissists, because they drive their self-hatred inwards and put on a grandiose front to protect themselves.
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Actually, I'm prepared to make the argument that embracing it might just be one of our best methods for coping with this cycle of social media self-hatred.
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Without these supports, individuals came to depend on the opinions of others for their sense of self-worth, which inflicted terrible cases of insecurity, envy and self-hatred.
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And I think women carry around a lot of self-doubt and self-hatred for not handling it better, when in fact we should not be handling it.
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The daughter of pop icon Michael Jackson admits that she had periods where she experienced self-hatred, but she is proud of how far she has come since then.
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Artistically, though, it was one of Murphy's boldest shows, with a backward chronology and a moving performance by Criss as Cunanan, a panicked dandy hollowed out by self-hatred.
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If someone did get mad at me, I'd obsess over it, frozen in a moment of shame and self-hatred long after the other person had let it go.
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When the woman accidentally liked a post, she achieved a new personal best in self-hatred, just as the rapist was achieving a new personal best in his triathlon.
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She Opens Up About Her Multiple Suicide Attempts "It was just self-hatred," she says of taking 20 Motrin tablets and slashing her wrist in June 2013 at age 15.
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I can only speak from my experiences, but when you are in it — when you live in a homebase of pure and all-encompassing self-hatred — it just rules everything.
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I didn't realize it at first, but any issues of insecurity, anxiety, inadequacies, relationship issues, and self-hatred were due to what I went through with the separation of my family.
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As well as a sense of disconnect, and self hatred about my body and a feeling of hopelessness all of which by being held in the hole, isolation, made much worse.
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This dark, antic satire follows Paul Rainey, a "painful knot of self-hatred" whose dead-end job, as a salesman in London, leads him to self-medicate with drugs and drink.
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Not mad with self-hatred, exactly, or mad like the madwoman in the attic, but mad because the very ingredients of her public persona guaranteed that it would unhinge her mind.
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And, by the way, who ever thought it was a good idea to leave another very vulnerable being alone with Rachel, whose self-hatred has a way of turning explosively outward?
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Ms. Cannon's strategy appears to be to foreground Sophia's vulnerability and self-hatred — after episodes of boorishness or violent anger, she's liable to loudly ask herself why she's such a jerk.
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And if there ever were a setting that would let a filmmaker explore the self-doubt and self-hatred that can keep a queer kid buried in the closet, this is it.
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"You talk to some of these people that have had grundles of sex partners and the self-loathing and basically the unhappiness and the self-hatred level is tremendously high," he said.
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But when the sandwich ended, I was spat back out into reality, and reality meant that the food that had once comforted me now propelled me into a state of self-hatred.
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The emotions that Mr. Flynn is called upon to embody at once include guilt, fear, self-hatred and, most troublingly, the sense that maybe he was really happiest back in the basement.
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On the eve of his sixth birthday, after a four-year battle with self-hatred and depression, he felt safe enough to transition from living as a boy to living as a girl.
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Self-hatred seems to be at an all time cultural high so if something seemingly so shitty can be good, then maybe there's some good to be found in all our own shittiness.
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But in doing so, you're also sending a powerful message to your children about how to set limits with troubled people — even troubled grandmas — who attempt to inflict their self-hatred on you.
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I constructed a life for myself in which my physical appearance just never, ever came up, as any reminder of how I looked took me right back to the core of my self-hatred.
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Psychologist and author Robert Burgo has written about working with people who seek invisibility and suggests they are both perfectionistic (consider Trump's claim about his high IQ and accomplishments) and afflicted by self-hatred.
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Her self-hatred and self-loathing come gushing out (even if it's couched in self-deprecation) and this excoriation occurs because her rural isolation gives her almost no one else to share this with.
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This moment of confusion—about internalized self-hatred and the affection of naming—is unlike anything that's been put onscreen before; it shows what freedom and pain can look like, all in one frame.
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And I came, as tears streamed down my face with a shame and self-hatred that made me want to rip the flesh from my bones and pull hair out of my head in handfuls.
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This voice comes from a place of self-protection, not self-hatred, and has often led me to what I imagine self-love "should" feel like: short-lived bliss, a very temporary state of okayness.
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One could hop in and drive him like a big-finned fifties car, as his self-hatred ran a race with his contempt for others, and raw need sometimes manifested itself in a weird tenderness.
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We found a way to take our own self-hatred and put it on other people completely absent of the fact that we were angry over things in our lives that we had control over.
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Almost immediately, the unironic eulogies and self-hatred came pouring in: I don't want to ruin anyone's day, but I do want you to know that today The Great Barrier Reef is declared officially dead. pic.twitter.
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"Well, yes, but less now because I've gotten too old and ugly and fat to do them anymore, so now I've done other things, and I've got marginally less self-hatred," he answered with a laugh.
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At the peak of my self-hatred I hit the thinnest I've ever been, and the compliments poured in, confirming what I'd always believed; I was more worthy in others' eyes now that I was skinny.
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Nevertheless: It is my opinion that Israeli mistrust of the Ashkenazi spirit is intensifying, due both to the increased influence of Mizrahim in Israeli life and to Ashkenazim's own—fairly well-chronicled— inclinations toward self-hatred.
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She insists that she loves people, that she wants to rescue them from the self-hatred drilled into them by the powers that be — the same system that prevented her from being who she really is.
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But if you're a procrastinator, next time you're wallowing in the dark playground of guilt and self-hatred over your failure to start a task, remember that the right kind of procrastination might make you more creative.
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Rather, the dramedy seems to lightly poke fun at the systems working to ruin Plum's self esteem, while also taking her self-hatred at obvious face value, as if everyone who looks like Plum detests their body.
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It might appear as blunt apathy or violent self-hatred or soul-scouring despair, but none of that comes through in a character drifting around an airy and immaculate apartment reading inspirational letters from an old professor.
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In 2012, I broke up with a boyfriend who cheated on me, and I was just wallowing in self-hatred, when I suddenly found a fitness class that was mostly about having fun and treating yourself well.
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"Many today will still refer to the 'white' Afrikaans as beautiful, pure and proper but their version has a negative or lower form reflecting an internalized self-hatred left behind through slavery, colonialism and apartheid," Goliath said.
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"Failure is a big one for me — people in spiritual crisis, in a moment in life of total self-hatred," Ms. Foster told me recently, explaining how the movie, to be released May 13, connects to her.
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"The beauty myth - an obsession with physical perfection that traps modern woman in an endless cycle of hopelessness, self consciousness, and self-hatred as she tries to fulfill society's impossible definition of flawless beauty," the singer wrote.
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Though some of the men finesse the ambient homophobia of the time better than others, almost all of them suffer from the self-hatred that seemed then, and maybe now, to infiltrate even the best-defended personality.
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In Arthur's relationship with his mother — if not with his neighbor crush, an incredibly perfunctory role for Zazie Beetz — Joker at least attempts to acknowledge that a "beta male" like Arthur might transfer his self-hatred onto women.
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Despite a loving wife, two kids, and a great job as a chef at a local restaurant, the lifelong drinker spent every miserable morning trying to remove the creeping thoughts of self-hatred from his perpetually pounding head.
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Applewhite had apparently been fired by the University of St. Thomas in Houston following his relationship with a male student, and his lingering self-hatred ended up informing both the ideology and the style choices of Heaven's Gate.
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So getting into sexual situations where I can't even feel myself in my body, but I'm so concerned about how I look, or what's hanging out, or I'm just so filled with self- hatred I'm literally physically disconnected.
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She was so filled with shame and self-hatred because she was trying so fucking hard to be someone people liked and thought was interesting that she stopped paying attention to what she liked and thought was interesting.
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Or rather, they are and they aren't — to be an artist is, often, to live in the thin, unhappy space between arrogance and self-hatred, with one word tipping you over the line in one direction or another.
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Season 2 bloomed like a rose from the tragicomic soil of Season 1's focus on grief, anger, and self-hatred, and showed Fleabag's bravery in pursuing that which she spent most of the first season avoiding — real love.
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She also intends to publish her poetry, which includes a piece titled "Self-Hatred Goodbyes" about the body shaming she has faced in a sport in which competitors' obsession with body image has been blamed for dangerous eating disorders.
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Why should our mental health suffer the pressure of consistent self-hatred, the theory goes, when, in a matter of minutes, we could inject our way to a stronger chin or plumper lip, and then go think about other things?
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Let's hope that Reid's apology is genuine and that she, too, has actually learned it's bigoted, tasteless, and disrespectful to claim that anti-LGBTQ+ politicians are really just closeted people who are using their own self-hatred to hurt others.
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Humans are sexual beings, and if sexual feeling is considered sinful by the state, the family, the mosque, and the community, the child who begins to think he is different from the other boys will be tormented by self-hatred.
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Death, maimed spirits, racial and cultural self-hatred, the joy of the imagination, of finding real-life metaphors to describe who you are, the propulsive force of anger, nightmares, humorous imaginings—where do all these hobgoblins and fancies come from?
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This urge to "earn" full citizenship by effort instead of by claiming it as a birthright seems forlorn now, a product of minds exposed so long to toxic bigotry that some of it had seeped inside and curdled into self-hatred.
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But whether it's Alex speaking in drag at prestigious conferences, Sudipto pushing gender boundaries with daring performances, or Harish going further still to point out self-hatred within the LGBTQ community, drag may be an art form whose time in India has come.
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"A lot of people like to think if you wear extensions or weaves, you're full of self-hatred and, if you wear natural hairstyles, your sense of self and your sense of community and culture is at an all-time high," she says.
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It makes me so hopeful when I talk to actors and directors and audience members who don't have the same baggage I was taught coming up in the business, that heavy weight of feeling so out of place that you develop self-hatred.
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During a lengthy interview with Marc Maron for the comedian's WTF podcast, the Stranger Things star opened up about dealing with anxiety, self-hatred, mania, fear and sobriety — and revealed he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 25 after being committed to an asylum.
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You have the power to break out of the diet cycle, to stop giving money to companies that profit from your self-hatred, to refuse to believe the manipulation any longer, and to take your happiness right now, instead of ten pounds from now.
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That's the worst kind of self-hatred when someone would say, "I'm just gonna take some time and write," and then watch them come into the restaurant bar area on their day off waiting for co-workers to come in so they could hang out.
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No. 4," a collection of essays on craft, is a sunny tribute to the gloomy side of the writing life: the insecurity, dread, shame, envy, magical thinking, pointless rituals, financial instability, self-hatred — the whole "masochistic self-inflicted paralysis of a writer's normal routine.
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It's possible that Mateen, enraged by his inability to stop men from kissing in public and struggling with self-hatred, took it upon himself to annihilate the people who dared pierce the illusion that manhood and the righteous sexual domination of women naturally go hand-in-hand.
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Though Smith argues vehemently that, among other things, it's America's culture of "misogyny, homophobia, transphobia, class-based elitism, self-hatred, violence, untreated mental illness" that derails young boys en route to black manhood, he reserves his most acidic critiques for Hampton administrators, Obama and Smith's own father.
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"I need some water/something came over me/way too hot to simmer down/might as well overheat," he drones, nailing the eerie feeling; later, when he impersonates a lech asking, disingenuously, to only put "the head in," the extent to which desire correlates with self-hatred is unclear.
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People who I had considered owners of "flawless" and "enviable" bodies, which had helped fuel my self-hatred, were queuing up to confess their own struggles with diet, self-image, body dysmorphia, and yo-yo dieting, and the impact that this had had on their friendships, relationships, and even careers.
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Their ideas and thoughts were a part of a unique healing process—one that tore down my self-hatred, built up a sense of black collectivism, and gave me more concrete ideas on how to navigate the world as a strong black woman without the protection and supervision of my father.
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Rebecca gleefully urging her imaginary audience to sing along with her, crowing, "Yes, I deserve this!" and wallowing in mocking her own self-hatred is one of the darkest and most revealing moments of the whole show, and it sets the stage for her rock-bottom moments in season three.
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INVISIBLE EXPORTS Nearby, at Booth 11, is a group of Cary Leibowitz's hilariously lacerating latex-on-wood pie charts — one is divided between "low self-esteem" and "excessive self-confidence," another among five wedges all labeled "me" — hung against checkered red oilcloth, as if for a picnic of performative self-hatred.
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Amer is artfully calling forth one of the underlying and fundamental complications of our genderist and sexist culture: the crucial need to recognize our desires as our own and resist projecting them onto others and thus start a cycle of blame, recrimination, punishment, reprisal, self-hatred, and the inevitable curtailing of someone else's life chances.
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Stan may seem like he fits into the mold of the ideal American man, but as he confesses many times to Angel, he feels suffocated by his fake life and overwhelmed by feelings of isolation, self-hatred, and the dueling fears of losing everything else he has versus never allowing himself the love he craves.
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"How lovely to see the phrase I said to my teenage/young adult self that also led to me calling myself a 'fat, disgusting waste of oxygen' often before self-harming just because I had dinner, sold in their shops ON FRICKIN SCALES so other impressionable young minds can suffer the same self hatred," wrote Shevlin on Facebook.
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Future newsletters include odes to marathon phone calls as a way to get a handle on your life, an examination of how going clubbing showed one contributor that dancing was the key to feeling less self-hatred about her body, and many more methods for feeling decent in a world that can sometimes seem less than kind.
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I've spent most of my career writing about fashion, so what I felt was familiar to me: a crushing need to buy something more expensive than it could ever be worth, plus the ambient self-hatred of knowing that marketing had worked on me, even though I had known what it was up to all along.
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As you create a wholly unnecessary roux in which to add the Velveeta, you may ask yourself how you ended up seven years into a career as a food writer, standing over a pot of processed cheese that you are about to dump onto a pile of meat-wrapped, slightly unripe bananas and then consume out of self-hatred and a need to entertain others through experimental idiocy.
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I was, for the moment, having a bit of difficulty conjuring the version of Kubitschek who had, with an almost apocalyptic fervor, warned of the looming demise of the German Volk (literally the "folk," but often used to indicate a national identity in ethnic terms), the man who had argued at an anti-immigration rally that Germans are being "replaced and exchanged" by migration, the man who had suggested that the "pathological" manner with which Germany processes the crimes of the Nazi past leads to a corrupting strain of national self-hatred.
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