Young women are gifted in self-loathing, but we chubby ones can be self-loathing savants.
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This is like people's Saturday Night self-loathing records and I got different self-loathing records like Bob Dylan's Time Out of Mind from 1997.
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Leonard Cohen is self-loathing in a "I went to college" way and I'm self-loathing in a "I skipped school and broke windows" way.
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There may be an element of self-loathing there, like the self-loathing Smith attributes to Weinstein himself; the women enablers may have some unconscious need to diminish and devalue something they lack.
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Self-loathing memes may be a form of therapy Self-loathing memes may be a form of therapy The makers of memes have found new material to joke about: suicide and clinical depression.
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Heteronormativity has beaten a little self-loathing into all of us.
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But the years of fear, self-loathing and shame that followed.
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Her silence was out of fear and self-loathing, said Argento.
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Richie, Vinyl's hero, comes marinated in hard drugs and self-loathing.
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I only ate ten before the self-loathing made me stop.
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There is an English tradition of self-loathing characters in comedy.
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His name became a trigger for this self-loathing and anxiety.
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There's a game I play when I'm feeling particularly self-loathing.
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As it turns out, hitting goals doesn't magically erase self-loathing.
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Or how self-loathing might creep into a realization like that.
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Each intense phone conversation upended years of denial and self-loathing.
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Absolutely. Addiction, depression, physical pain, boredom, self-loathing, anger, sadness, numbness, etc.
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It also seems that your music contains a lot of self-loathing.
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In a craven display of self-loathing, Ben Carson became Trump's champion.
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"It took years for this internalized self-loathing to fade," she writes.
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As a result, they're forced to endure the sear of self-loathing.
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But they don't give up on me, despite my powerful self-loathing.
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And I'm admitting it now: My self-loathing has reached ridiculous levels.
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I just wanted the pain, the self-loathing, the suffocation to end.
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Murphy's self-confidence helped Brown fight his own self-loathing, Brown said.
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Is Imran deeply self-loathing or a shrewd judge of what sells?
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She said she felt "soreness, self-loathing and humiliation" after the abuse.
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"Class" is a manifesto of contempt and its deformed twin, self-loathing.
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Not self-loathing, but I'm a huge believer in low self-esteem.
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Anxiety and self-loathing caused him to "self-medicate" with alcohol, he says.
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The more likely root of this self-loathing is Russia's bruised national ego.
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Fuck it, I'm in the mood for self-loathing… Diplo looks dashing here.
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"Self-loathing," Dr. Gudzune said, "can be a prominent feature" of being obese.
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Storr confesses that he, too, is dogged by self-loathing and suicidal thoughts.
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They're men of integrity, driven by some mixture of OCD and self-loathing.
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As I spoke, I became filled with both self-loathing and self-praise.
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WOOLFE I think Matthew's right in saying the play revels in self-loathing.
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My self-pitying turned to self-loathing, and then a dull, exhausted quiet.
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Is self-loathing the result of social rejection, or the cause of it?
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Or times where the smallest mistake could send me spiraling into self-loathing.
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The novel is a manifesto of contempt and its deformed twin, self-loathing.
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But keep your chin up, and save the deep self-loathing for something else.
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I was filled with self-loathing for taking the job of chief infotainment officer.
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Few things are more isolating than experiencing feelings of self-destruction and self-loathing.
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Because of insecurity, because of self-loathing, which I've had like throughout the years.
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Maybe Wes wandered into a pit of self-loathing and that's where he died.
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Through gritted teeth and loads of self-loathing, I admit that it's a bop.
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With that, they walk out, leaving Offred to bask in her own self-loathing.
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There is another path, one that doesn't leave you self-loathing in the morning.
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There's a lot of self-loathing in Kate in having to connect with people.
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There's some kind of self-loathing in the two of them, and it's dangerous.
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Beyond disbelief and dread, however, I also felt a familiar swell of self-loathing.
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He says, "Brackets, laughs bitterly" to convey some degree of irony or self-loathing.
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This is not an argument for self-loathing; it's an argument for self-awareness.
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Self-loathing and shame consumed her and she used heroin to escape those feelings.
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And "You Stupid Bitch" shows us her desire to wallow in congratulatory self-loathing.
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These kinds of self-loathing memes have skyrocketed in popularity in the last year.
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Mired in self-loathing, she did not tell her parents — or anyone else — what happened.
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But underneath that calm, impassive veneer lies a well of self-loathing, doubt and resentment.
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I was full of fear and self-doubt and self-loathing and self-everything-shit.
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Someone killing people who's crying and self-loathing and doesn't think he deserves to live.
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These people are up to their neck in the mire of self-loathing and guilt.
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" Former Ted Cruz staffer Amanda Carpenter called Haley's speech an example of "GOP self-loathing.
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It's worth noting that her verbal abuse toward you is almost certainly displaced self-loathing.
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Amid the bright animation of his social life, he wrestles with loneliness and self-loathing.
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His true self-periodically shows through, with flashes of sadness, confusion, and murderous self-loathing.
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It's just stewing in a toxic, hideous feeling of low self-worth and self-loathing.
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Or are you gonna just have a life of emptiness, self-hatred and self-loathing?
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It was a startling epiphany and the prelude to a period of profound self-loathing.
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His depression and self-loathing radiates off him — he's like Eeyore in an Italian suit.
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Colonized self-loathing seems to be a national trait we will never fully shake off.
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"We are not all self-loathing, secretive, unprotected-sex-having, disease-ridden liars," Malebranche wrote.
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"Save Myself," a bonus track, is a dark catalog of self-medication and self-loathing.
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The perfect fit between Mr. Fagen's sidelong hipster sneer and his self-loathing dirtbag narrative.
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You think if only Tchaikovsky had lived today, he wouldn't have needed that self-loathing.
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It has made me gain five pounds ... I have experienced an unhealthy level of self-loathing.
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That was the only way I could keep going despite my self-loathing — that external recognition.
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But I do know that self-loathing can feel like a massive creature blocking my path.
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And yet, I am often bogged down by self-loathing when it comes to my appearance.
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Of course, it has nothing to do with their size; it's an act of self-loathing.
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I was prone to fits of terror that led to rage that led to self-loathing.
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Eurich suggests approaching these aspirations without sadness or self-loathing, and instead focusing solely on improvement.
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The comedy didn't just come from the song's initial self-loathing; it ended with birds chirping.
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In seclusion, self-loathing can be alchemized into healing — or at least a way of coping.
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What if they're tricking people into self loathing and in a way making them more inclusive?
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Thoroughly embalmed with self-loathing, I had to get the fuck out of there, lickety split.
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But because of my crippling self-loathing, I just keep taking more of everything for myself.
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They lead full, vibrant lives that are not constricted or defined by fear or self-loathing.
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" Self-Loathing (via Fellow Women): "If you can't stand the culture, get out of the yogurt!
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The horrors of authorship — missed deadlines, self-loathing, isolation — provide especially good material for psychological thrillers.
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It was this cruel expectation of myself that filled my 20s and 30s with self-loathing.
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Because of that self-loathing, things that are campy are arch and ironic about their campiness.
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This went on for about two decades — insanely restrictive dieting, seeing my body through a funhouse mirror, overeating, putting on weight, refusing to exercise, self-loathing, dating boys who didn't value me (since I didn't value myself), loathing the culture that encouraged my self-loathing, repeat.
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And then, with a sickly little clunk of self-loathing, you hit that like button, don't you.
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A round of applause for Bryan, who appears to have turned self-loathing into an argument strategy.
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That could lead to self-loathing if they weren't diligent in managing their disease to avoid amputation.
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It is that rare book on addiction: neither preaching nor self-loathing, lapsing only occasionally into romanticism.
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" Too scared to tell her parents or the authorities, Roper instead became "depressed, anxious, and self loathing.
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He is full of shame, indignation, and self-loathing—all the cold comfort of the recently rejected.
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Being occupied with self-loathing left little room to be grateful for what my body could do.
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I am glad, and in my less self-loathing moments, even proud, to have written a book.
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Many gay men of his era have awful coming-out stories, involving years of closeted self-loathing.
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The cliché of the homicidal (usually closeted) homosexual — driven to kill by envy, lust, self-loathing, etc.
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To allow the self-scrutiny required in this act to turn to self-loathing would be debilitating.
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I screeched like a woman smothering all of her former selves under an avalanche of self-loathing.
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Which is to say, we're all eating, playing video games, and watching Seinfeld until self-loathing dawns.
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Most of the mockery dished out in this world arises from a bottomless pit of self-loathing.
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Ironically, the book is all about how to learn to work through self-loathing and like yourself.
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It helped us see through writers and directors who wrapped their misogyny in irony or self-loathing.
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The bulk of the film consists of a flashback that traces the roots of Christina's self-loathing.
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For three months, I followed a blue menu and made collages about body image and self-loathing.
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You don't experience a Larry Sanders-like feeling of self-loathing when you watch other people's shows?
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Racism and self-loathing aside, ethics are the stuff of the comfortable: Down here, work is work.
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It has its own distinctive, salty vibe, driven by McEnany's simultaneously self-loathing and self-aggrandizing swagger.
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Ronnie is an incredibly self-loathing character who suffers from a great deal of low self-esteem.
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Eventually John loses patience, lashing out at her, and she crumples into a whimpering heap of self-loathing.
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He went into treatment for his alcoholism; he is no longer as self-loathing as he was before.
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Your favorite self-loathing and super-strong P.I. is back and once again battling demons from her past.
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Stories about fatness have (almost) only been about sadness and self-loathing, but they don't have to be.
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But here's the thing: Four years of active self-acceptance does not erase a lifetime of self-loathing.
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Being at the mercy of someone else's self-loathing is an experienced that has permanently marked Williams's life.
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When self doubt and self loathing creep into my soul he is my champion, my number one fan.
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I no longer had to be self-loathing about my body, ashamed of desire, and contemptuous of vulnerability.
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I fell into a bout of self-loathing when I found the answer, which was far too obvious.
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Maybe even — gulp — the self-loathing that comes with wondering if you even deserve your blessings at all.
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Requesting a selfie from a woman is often asking that she stew in self-loathing for thirty minutes.
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Taylor reunited with a group of classmates from high school who were sexually unconventional, poor, and self-loathing.
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Deceit morphs into self-loathing, and you start to hate yourself, and that's not good for any relationship.
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You can't avoid breaking your heart over Rimmer's self-loathing and resentment, the engine behind all his unpleasantness.
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Gay examines wells of trauma and horror, not sparing her own self-loathing from her forthright analytic eye.
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"Every black woman that I've spoken to has gone through that severe journey of self-loathing," she said.
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Although he appears fearless onstage, he said, he is bedeviled by doubt and insecurity and some self-loathing.
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I remember wanting video evidence that I was a worthless mess, and I wallowed in the self-loathing.
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This is a large part of the comic Self-Loathing Comics #1: A Day in the Life (1994).
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I am deeply disappointed to find such validation of self-loathing, women-loathing bigotry within the Book Review.
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I walked around with it, a self-loathing so intense I felt like I was rotting from the inside.
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This is why somebody feels inadequate or self-loathing or self-aggrandizing; this is what makes someone like this.
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Although this young woman fills me with self-loathing, I find I'm glad she feels free to insult me.
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Freedom from all the self doubt, insecurities, self loathing, uncertainties and anxieties of my 20's and 203's.
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The truth is, getting married can turn even the most self-confident lady into a shivering, self-loathing mess.
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There's a masochism to that idea, something that even a self-loathing, weather-hardened Old Worlder might find strange.
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Mama identified with both main characters — a great, promising young talent brought blow by addiction, self-loathing and destruction.
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The narrative structure paints this not as unreasonable self-loathing, but as loosely equivalent to Ollie and Arthur's decisions.
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If you forget about context, it's quite sex-positive until the fourth line, when self-loathing kicks back in.
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"As you get older, with each binge, the fatigue and the hostility and self-loathing lasts longer," she says.
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The mismatched detectives in his new film, "The Nice Guys", have two attributes in common, incompetence and self-loathing.
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Was he a self-loathing closeted man somewhere on the queer spectrum who targeted people who personified his conflict?
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Around, who has been trying to find his way through a muddle of self-loathing, whisky and failed relationships.
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It's the people who commit these crimes have access to guns, and they tend to be really self-loathing.
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But the words ... the grammar was bad, the messages completely contradictory, condescending or self-loathing, the writing mostly mediocre.
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"The defendant is self-loathing; he wants no one to know or to see who he is," she said.
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It's better to accept that and make yourself some tea than to sit in a pit of self-loathing.
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Spiraling into self-loathing, I'd try to talk myself out of it, thinking: At least the cookies were Paleo.
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I said it again, looking for a flash of anger in his eyes—anything to confirm my self-loathing.
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Unfortunately for many Americans, Thanksgiving has become a time for overeating, followed by weight gain and inevitable self-loathing.
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The voices of fear and self-loathing were silenced by the screech of the subway and roar of traffic.
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Nor do I think drugs are a short-term solution that necessarily leads to acting-out and self-loathing.
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Modern Love A young woman struggling with an eating disorder tries to shift from self-loathing to self-loving.
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Then the creeping insecurity and self-loathing came rushing back, threatening to overwhelm the comfort of this new relationship.
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If we got to know him better, it seems to me there's probably some deep self-loathing in there.
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Think "My So-Called Life," but with more trauma — balanced with humor, fear not — self-loathing and sex talk.
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Think "My So-Called Life," but with more trauma — balanced with humor, fear not — self-loathing and sex talk.
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If we got to know him better, it seems to me there's probably some deep self-loathing in there.
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Scrolling through Instagram can often feel like an endless, self-loathing journey that heightens any tiny feeling of inadequacy.
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But the truth was that all I really had to offer them was food addiction and deep-rooted self-loathing.
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I wonder what she might be like today if all the forces in the world hadn't taught her self-loathing.
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I was a champion online but in reality I had stopped showering, eating right, and was consumed by self-loathing.
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I still deal with those intense feelings of shame, guilt and self loathing that have been programmed into my brain.
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As I shuffled through them, the image of my semi-naked self immediately set off a spiral of self-loathing.
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I think it's that beautiful mixture of self-loathing, intelligence, and complete lack of censorship that does it for me.
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But when it comes to the game of inciting satirical self-loathing, Black Mirror is better than just about anything.
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Knife-edge abs, golden complexion, pursed lips, tiny physiques; I dig deeper into the pit of misery and self-loathing.
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Expecting to make the switch from self-loathing to total, unadulterated self-love was unreasonable — perfectionism in a different form.
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But JoJo falls for the poor sap after he confides in her about his deep-rooted insecurity and self-loathing.
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And I go through these different moods of self-loathing and egotism, but having friends and family help ground you.
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Still, Derek felt "self-loathing" and "sadness," and believed there was no one else for him in Mexico besides Tayshia.
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The negative passions — grief, self-loathing, shame, regret — are as much a human right as universal health care, or food.
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A fruitless day trying on clothes that didn't fit my body would send me into a spiral of self-loathing.
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It makes some people with addiction too nervous to admit to their illness, and it might even cause self-loathing.
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Having goals gives you something to aim for, stops you being a sponge, and hopefully staves off all that self-loathing.
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Indeed, all these fundamental feelings of self-loathing I'd been struggling with for as long as I could remember have disappeared.
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Like that trauma and oppression play a part in creating distressing mental and emotional states — like incapacitating sadness or self-loathing.
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I'm struck with the blow of self-loathing when I realize it's been weeks since I last talked to my friends.
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His character, a self-loathing "heterosexual cisgender man", declines their offer to say grace in favour of a "First-People's chant".
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" Even the press release that accompanies the track opens by mentioning "self-loathing, self-destruction, and a general disdain for humanity.
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As Kym, Hathaway is brash, needy, and self-loathing, giving her natural theater-kid thirst for attention a decidedly dark spin.
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These additions were definitely an improvement on the original, but it didn't quite trigger the self-loathing I was looking for.
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Why should we put up with the oppression of Fantasy Football, when it brings us only misery, self-loathing and shame?
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Even in our most self-loathing moments we don't want to put that stuff into our bodies—it's 2017 for chrissake.
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For whatever reason, a tinge of sourness—or self-loathing, or at least self-consciousness—had harshed the show's trademark mellow.
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They are my miracles, which I almost didn't allow to happen because of heartbreak, self-doubt and maybe even self-loathing.
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Broken and riddled with self-loathing, her father cannot bring himself to scatter her ashes in Mexico, the country she loved.
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My editor friend confessed that he could charge only $400 to his corporate card, and I felt sick with self-loathing.
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Mr. Kinnaman blends menace with glints of sympathetic self-loathing, but his character proves too underdrawn, starved for a back story.
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The emerging picture is that Mateen might have turned to ISIS-inspired ideological violence out of homophobia rooted in self-loathing.
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I spent many years drunk, seesawing between the incredible self-loathing and glimmers of elation that come along with being intoxicated.
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Kate is what happens when you're not able to be yourself—her own bullying and self-loathing are healed through Maddie.
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When you purge, you're expelling all the nastiness — the stress, the anxieties, the fears, the regrets, the hatred, the self-loathing.
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A blend of adoration, self-loathing, and neurosis, the millennial princess complex plays out in fanfic, cosplay, and endless Tumblr GIFs.
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Her robust capacity for denial — and her bracing streak of self-loathing — seem to be the truest aspects of her personality.
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Storr confesses to spending much of his time in a state of self-loathing and he would like to know why.
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These "thoughts," as they're called in the playbill's cast breakdown, are pestering manifestations of self-doubt, self-loathing, and sexual ambivalence.
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So was her coach, Darren Cahill, who resigned the position for a spell, exasperated by Halep's futile bouts with self-loathing.
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" ("BoJack Horseman" is a wry adult cartoon about a self-loathing humanoid horse.) "I've asked her, 'Do I look nice today?
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A new study found positive results in helping people grapple with their internalized self-loathing, along with traditional weight loss methods.
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And he's so riddled with self-loathing that he can't even stand to look at Baz, which only makes things worse.
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The damage you can do to yourself, through self-rejection and self-loathing, it's almost worse than what other people do.
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It is difficult to imagine Netflix's "BoJack Horseman", an animation about a self-loathing humanoid horse, finding a prime time slot anywhere.
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If I'm feeling guilt and self loathing, more likely than not, there is a legion of other women having a similar experience.
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"I found myself faced with so much self-loathing and worked my way through that and realized I had worth," she says.
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An "insubstantial man", as he himself admits, he is diffident, filled with self-loathing, incapable of standing up to his bullying father.
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I'm repulsed by my own actions, and the self-loathing I'm going through right now is justified by the hurt I've caused.
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We had long, deep dysfunctional patterns: guilt trips, self-medicating, self-loathing, and retreating into work to distance ourselves from the problems.
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The legitimately shocking twist comes after Sam inadvertently tries to hook up with his own daughter in a fit of self-loathing.
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But I find if I start in on the self-loathing, calling myself inflexible or boring or no fun, it's counter-productive.
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Watch as Simone asks her teenage self to give up on the self-loathing and allow personal love to grow with time.
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"BoJack Horseman," Friday, Netflix Watch if you like dark comedies, Hollywood-set stories, and a piercing look at depression and self-loathing.
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Once I found a stack of Hustler magazines in the woods and devoured them with a fire of lust and self-loathing.
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It's just not self-loathing enough to be a true jerk-centered comedy, and we have an awful lot of those, anyway.
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These feelings of self-loathing have not only affected my ability to develop intimate relationships with other Black men, but also friendships.
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He sheds the dark horse self-loathing worn as proud armor on albums past, along with the ill-fitting skin of celebrity.
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They include a naysayer called Your Daily Self Loathing; his agent, Fairweather; and a spectrum of potential, derisive dates on hookup apps.
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As long as that is the objective, it's rooted really in self-loathing, in denial of the fact that we are aging.
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Self-loathing abounds, as "Assassination" repeatedly depicts the psychological effects of internalized homophobia and the miserable spiritual contortions required to stay closeted.
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Decades after Davis pulled on a doll's dress, grotesquerie has been key to modern female comedy, as self-assertion, not self-loathing.
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Still, Izzy's despair and self-loathing force Astor to confront his own, redeeming an often insufferable protagonist and ultimately salvaging the film.
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Someone who has the same interests and same smarts but with maybe just a little less self-loathing and cynicism in their heart?
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But right now, Virtually Dating sends me into a spiral of self-loathing at the prospect of participating in heterosexual dating ever again.
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What is to blame for the Preaker women's cycle of cold, self-loathing, and controlling behaviors, which alternate in erratic and unpredictable waves?
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"We have these self-loathing narratives on autoplay, and we constantly beat ourselves up with them, but they are not true," she says.
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So if you guys don't know this, TMZ is a guilty pleasure blog, run by a self-loathing gay man named Harvey Levin.
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They send the problematic message that bigotry is simply the result of self-loathing, and that LGBTQ+ people project their insecurities onto others.
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" Days N' Daze require peace of mind almost as much as they require closure, judging by Crustfall tracks "Self Loathing" and "Note Idol.
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Klein's self-loathing manifests in a quest to find out something, anything, about this woman that would help her feel better about herself.
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And beyond the toil of navigating the middle ground between self-acceptance and self-loathing, MacDonald has a thing for making people laugh.
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Teenagers with beautiful smiles and perfectly healthy bodies focus on the number on the scale and fall into the trap of self-loathing.
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I remember when I was first getting sober, part of the mind-set of an addict is that there's shame and self-loathing.
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We asked two experts on sustainable seafood just how self-loathing we should feel as we work our way through a bento box.
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Years of obsessive self-loathing combined with my restricted, unbalanced diet had dysregulated some of my body's hormonal functions — specifically, its reproductive capabilities.
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Heady and philosophical, Mr. Echevarria remains interested in the thinking patterns — the self-loathing and propensity for violence — that landed him in prison.
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And what of the man who fired a pistol on an East Harlem street 18 years ago, who was violent and self-loathing?
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JAMES PICKENS JR. It was a story that's universal, how hate and self-loathing and the loss of innocence affects the body human.
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We get another look at how crushing that shame and self-loathing might be, when Andrew and David stop at a roadside bar.
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It's a decision born of shame and self-loathing, and it's one that could only be made in a culture that degrades women.
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Rigoletto's torment and self-loathing in his soliloquy have seldom seemed so raw to me as when delivered in James Fenton's excellent translation.
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"Sharp Objects" instead relies on internal drama and a transfixing Ms. Adams, who lays Camille's ragged soul bare with sardonicism and self-loathing.
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Given the stigma associated with having a larger body, it's no surprise you feel the shame, despair and self-loathing that you do.
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This sensational cinema, unjustly targeted by those it represented, reflected not only the nation's self-loathing, but also its verve under brutal modernization.
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Modern Love: In this week's column, a young woman struggling with an eating disorder tries to shift from self-loathing to self-loving.
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That's effectively the same thing, but it's the happy kind of resolution that doesn't entail self-loathing at the end of every party.
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Tracks like "31 Days" and "When I Think About It" strike classic Future chords, full of despair, self-loathing, and a twisted nihilism.
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There's a knowing, jokey bravado to the band's image and album titles and artwork that belies the self-loathing inherent in their songs.
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There's a strong element of self-loathing to this fantasy, whose appeal relies on the belief that your current, pre-makeover self is unacceptable.
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I boarded my flight after a couple of delays, exhausted and grumpy with self-loathing, when finally it looked like I'd caught a break.
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Do they help me become a better writer, or is it just narcissistic self-loathing that holds me back from doing my best work?
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For generations they have operated under a system not designed in their favor, and they have done so without self-loathing and without bitterness.
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And so White emphasizes the tragedy, making his Lancelot riddled with self-loathing, a weak and broken man chasing after an impossibly high ideal.
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In his desperation to help her, he's turned to Nick Sax (Meloni), a self-loathing ex-cop who makes his living as a hitman.
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Twitter timelines are full of "Tidying Up" jokes, most of which lie somewhere between the valleys of laughing self-awareness and laughing self-loathing.
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There was a very real possibility that deciding to order dessert would set off a firestorm of self-loathing that would rage for days.
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They fed the promotion of "perfection" and "aspirational beauty" — and everything else that causes most young women to enter a self-loathing rage spiral.
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The track that follows is generally about flawed human nature and specifically about someone trapped in a cycle of self-loathing and self-harm.
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As the reality of human-driven climate change increasingly sinks in around the world, it has provoked angst, denial, and species-wide self-loathing.
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Instagram's terms and conditions regarding nudity have steered his drawings into a slightly more wholesome direction, if you can call acute self-loathing wholesome.
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And in an era when we're told to practice self-love, there's something perversely glorious about wallowing in such a cesspool of self-loathing.
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A number of the women are sick, self-loathing schemers eager to act out their revenge fantasies, so the battle lines are evenly drawn.
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Heartless Steve Almond Reading the letters we receive, I'm always struck by how much, and how quickly, people convert their pain into self-loathing.
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A ridiculous portrait of self-loathing and bottomless thirst, it also functioned as a kind of mission statement for the series as a whole.
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There is something extreme in Yang's characterization of the Asian American's plight, a bottomless self-loathing that is as repellent as it is fascinating.
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When Joan Rivers died, the internet exploded because we could talk about what kind of feminist her comedy of self-loathing really made her.
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Where the "Great Mixed-Race Hope" comes from Interracial children were once considered tragic figures, self-loathing objects of pity trapped between two racial identities.
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But my own self-loathing was enough to ingrain less-than-compassionate habits: I still won't go tubing on the lake on Fourth of July.
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Adi: To be fair, ambiguous self-loathing is a pretty normal theme for the show, right up there with technology making us emotionally stunted narcissists.
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For most, it might result in a moment of self-loathing followed by a speedy — if ironic — status update to lament society's growing tech addiction.
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I'm prone to self-loathing, but I had never hated myself with more fire and sorrow than I did standing there in the Empty Bottle.
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White comedians like Bill Hicks and George Carlin attacked US hypocrisy with precision, and Hicks stood naked in his own self-loathing, no masks required.
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It's a song that rises from somewhere near your gut, a place that can so often burn and fizzle with the bile of self-loathing.
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The whole thing is shrouded with Quentin's self-loathing, because it is, he realizes, "a terrible, really awful, hurtful betrayal" of Alice, whom he loves.
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Award-winning indie platformer Celeste, for example, features a depressed, self-loathing girl named Madeline who wrestles with her inner demons while climbing a mountain.
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And yet, for all the self-loathing they display, when The Goon Sax get onstage they exude nothing but passion and love for their work.
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We're actually in the greed-driven Capitalocene, the trash-choked Plasticene, the combustible Pyrocene, the self-loathing Misanthropocene, the testosterone-dominated Manthropocene—even the Obscene.
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Savages reclaim love's gray areas—the anxiety, the self-loathing, the appetite—from the corners of shame and isolation to which they are often relegated.
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"Premature" elimination that's actually very much in line with what could reasonably be expected of available talent. 4. Disappointment. Self-loathing. Inquest. Introspection. 5. Repeat.
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They were just long enough to hit our sprouting adolescent hips in a way that truly escalated self-loathing, even on the slimmest of students.
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Men's suffering and self-loathing is treated as a public concern, because men are permitted to be real people whose inner lives and dreams matter.
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In tears, she laments the "mind prison" she's starting to recognize and reject, wishing she could have unburdened herself earlier from shame and self-loathing.
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Like his introspective fourth-century namesake, August was once paralyzed by guilt over stealing some pears, and he's prone to extravagant bouts of self-loathing.
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I have seen and read so many stories about sad self-loathing men getting divorced that at this point, I approach them all with skepticism.
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Most senior Bolsheviks had moved into the Kremlin or one of Moscow's "Houses of Soviets" and settled into a life of self-loathing communal domesticity.
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Much of Morbid Stuff, the Toronto punks' third and best record, is about growing tired of depression and self-loathing, wondering why anyone still cares.
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Anat Shenker-Osorio, a messaging expert, discovered that in focus groups which included middle-class people, she heard a lot of expressions of self-loathing.
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I knew I had to escape the grip of my self-loathing, but it was still too hard to open up to the real world.
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They're going to be reading about rape and abortion and fear and self-loathing and abusive sex and going, 'Oh yeah, that's happened to me.
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Self-loathing is rife in the UK. A new survey states that three out of four of women aren't happy with the way they look.
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I like her as Black Widow, but I didn't get the kind of cold, self-loathing recklessness it seems like she was trying to project here.
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Here, he goes meta (again?), tackling weighty themes like self-loathing, benders and destructive spirals, the pros and cons of the Father John Misty persona (well
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Negga's Preacher co-star joined the cast of Misfits in its third season as Rudy, a man whose self-loathing has split him into two people.
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"There are implications for self-loathing, self-concept, shame, access to support networks, and adequate sexual health services" Kayhan, Faizi, and Mahmudi were married with families.
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Slowly deleting my own dumb tweets, one at a time, has been an education in self-loathing and shame, and it is 100-percent worth it.
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While I awaited the Arrival of Tronc, I walked around the two clubs a bit and grabbed a $203 Bud Lite out of sheer self-loathing.
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The track teetered on the edge of self-loathing until its conclusion when, for the first time, Hutchison broke the fourth wall and addressed his audience.
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I'm setting this up so you know that, when I laughed multiple times during the trailer, I was filled with a certain degree of self-loathing.
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His lawyer asked for leniency, saying MacFarlane was going through "period of depression and self loathing following his divorce," according to Law 360 reporter Chris Villani.
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Getting serious about achieving better times and focusing on going fast is fun too, but the side-effect is self-loathing so I stopped doing that.
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I've used raw numbers to somewhat keep down my own weight-based self-loathing, and I find myself happier, less plagued by my own neurotic nightmares.
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And, whether it was that distance or my bottomless self-loathing or some desperate post-suicide urge to live, that first year I remade myself completely.
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Social conditioning causes men like me to experience severe self-loathing, shame, and embarrassment because we've never had to question the authenticity of our manhood before.
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The best part has been, after a lifetime of questioning, finally gaining the words to articulate who and what I am without hesitation or self-loathing.
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Perhaps this has to do with Piper's decision not to exhibit her work in all-black shows, which has been perceived by some as self-loathing.
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It is a work that tackles racism, self-loathing, poverty and sexual abuse in such beautiful prose that I have returned to its passages multiple times.
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I fear that only those who have been victims can truly comprehend the impact of self-loathing and guilt, the "blur" as Ms. Taddeo sadly describes.
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When Mr. Murphy first proposed the revival, Mr. Mantello worried that the play, bristling with gay self-loathing and mutual annihilation, was too campy and dated.
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By the end of this bleak and feverish novel, one thing is clear: Poor old Pat, full of Scotch and self-loathing, is just another victim.
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She said she believes it stemmed from the shame and self-loathing her father felt when he realized that she was telling the truth about Nassar.
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"Views," like much of Drake's music, is relatable because of its vagueness, balancing tales of betrayal and self-loathing with winning celebrations of loyalty and friendship.
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A strained childhood in relative poverty in rural California and vigorously religious parents filled Nixon with an irreconcilable sense of self-loathing and need to please.
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It has been a long time, now, since I felt so full of self-loathing and listlessness that it pained me to get out of bed.
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Played at antic full tilt by the wondrous Mario Cantone, Jackie is combative and foul-mouthed, bigoted and self-loathing, hair-trigger outraged and very, very funny.
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There's no reason I couldn't have been all those things at 285 pounds, other than the fact that my own self-loathing prevented me from doing so.
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Interwoven with moments of dry humor, Kyung Me's adventures include iffy relationships and internal conflicts that produce all-too-relatable feelings of malaise, alienation, and self-loathing.
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The one-lesson take away from this is 99.9 percent of politicians are desperately insecure, self-loathing people who cannot ... Thank you Bradley, we got that. Yeah.
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It is born out of violent self-loathing, out of the desire to hurt and maim and punish a body that our culture has decided is unacceptable.
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They exist in spaces of acute self-loathing—at the end of a night of drinking, maybe, or in the early hours of the next morning's hangover.
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Most of the time, when I'm not wallowing in the depths of self-pity or self-loathing, I'm striving to be the best person I can be.
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The exhibition press release says that Leibowitz is practiced in the art of "self-loathing, interrogation and self-interrogation," but none of this show reads that way.
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As a character, Richie's mostly a drag — self-loathing, often cruel to his wife and friends, and saddled with a murder plot that drags down the show.
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He never explores the wartime experiences that left Tom numb, or that sparked such self-loathing that he desperately craves punishment by the end of the film.
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It can, in fact, be just the push a user needs to fall deeper into the downward spiral, creating a profound sense of isolation and self-loathing.
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In the end, it's more Far Cry, and people seem to like that despite the self-loathing that's been building within the series since Far Cry 3.
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"She's everything I want to be," we learn via Rachel's monotonous voice-over that does a good job of conveying her self-loathing despite being over-written.
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Through him, we're given a rare close-up inspection of the jumbled mess of self-aggrandizement and self-loathing that seems to drive so many public menaces.
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Like many romance heroes, Chase Reynaud, the future Duke of Belvoir, has cultivated the trauma of a youthful mistake into a grand unified theory of self-loathing.
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Darlene can't quite bring herself to say aloud that she murdered Susan Jacobs; her guilt and self-loathing forces Elliot to complete the puzzle on his own.
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In learning to accept my culture, I was able to lose the self-loathing that comes from believing that ''white is right'' and begin to love myself.
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I've learned that the opposite is also true: There is imprisonment in self-doubt, in self-loathing, and when we learn to love ourselves, that's real freedom.
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But this bracing, sometimes brutal movie — the feature debut of the writer and director Francis Lee — doesn't present Johnny's sexuality as the cause of his self-loathing.
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There's a chance that changing my dose would help keep the edges of my thoughts from fraying with anxious self-loathing, the way they still do sometimes.
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My body was caught in a constant state of fight-or-flight and the fight was always turned inwards, punishing myself with fear or shame or self-loathing.
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Matthew Ezzell, a sociologist at James Madison University, cautioned that while the incel belief system might seem like it's all just rooted in self-loathing, it's really not.
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According to Lorde herself, her long-awaited second album, Melodrama, traces the trajectory of a single night of partying, with all its exhilarating peaks and self-loathing valleys.
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Hollywood has pushed the narrative that fat people hate themselves because fat people are disgusting and their self-loathing is inherently earned as a byproduct of their fatness.
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If Dietland were to skewer the problematic factors creating this kind of self-loathing in women, it would be one of the best new shows of the summer.
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It's about the self-loathing, anger, and grief that can manifest at any moment, injecting sorrow into times you thought you felt fine, taking flight in intimidating forms.
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As Toby sets about trying to clear his name, we become increasingly trapped in the panicked, paranoid confines of his mind, all fragmented images and self-loathing vitriol.
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Every winter you say you're totally moving before the next one, and then you go through a major self-loathing crisis when you don't do it in time.
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Her memory is quite hazy, but all the same feelings she had in the woods—the shame and self-loathing—came rushing back as he raped her again.
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Now, we have nothing but ennui, self-loathing, and a hateful sense of entitlement to luxuries like 'down time' and 'work-life balance' and 'not getting miner's lung'.
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"If you don't end up filled with self-loathing and or guilt and or inexplicable rage, living in that community, then you are not paying attention," she said.
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Deep in self-loathing, he almost believes the lies he tells about himself — almost believes, too, that life is a party, that all of those drinks are celebratory.
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I think he felt at home in such neighborhoods, and that he also hated himself for living in them, transferring his self-loathing onto the people around him.
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On the remix, ASAP Rocky takes the opportunity to cleanse himself of some personal demons while sounding as if he's rapping from inside a vortex of self-loathing.
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That there was something terribly unique about them that caused this to occur, that they somehow brought it on themselves; they stew in a spiral of self-loathing.
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It's a rare and brilliant glimpse into how pure music can feel when it hasn't been tainted by the gifts of ennui and self-loathing that adulthood brings.
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But the real reason it still cuts so deeply is because it shows how insidious self-loathing is, and how profound — and human — is the yearning for respect.
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The delay-discounting model laid out by researchers such as George Ainslie and Howard Rachlin posits that pleasure-induced self-loathing arises from the conflict between mutually exclusive goals.
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This latest album is blessed with an almost Craft-ian swagger, dragging that classic Scandinavian swing through the gutter and bringing to mind a self-loathing, black metallicized Inepsy.
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So when it came to my final paper—which was naturally about Nietzsche, self-loathing, and self-harm—he let me turn it one week after the semester ended.
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Maybe her contempt for the Potters came not from a distaste for magic, but from resentment that they were more magical than her — or perhaps even from self-loathing.
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Unwilling to share his workplace humiliation, he has told her that his injury came when his car was rear-ended; he too has transmuted his rage into self-loathing.
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Rachel is very toxic, physically and emotionally; an incredibly tortured, self-loathing sort of person, and I thought it was thrilling to have a protagonist that's a blackout drunk.
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The "Dump Pelosi" movement shines a light on some of the unloveliest instincts of some Democrats: self-loathing, scapegoating and a desire for quick fixes, rather than hard work.
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Lyrically, the songs touch upon love/loss/manipulation, and self-loathing; distractions while the war machine continues its march, foaming at the mouth for more despair with each step.
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It's the sound of the wheels starting to wobble before flying off entirely, careening into self-loathing and loneliness, before eventually coasting to a quieting halt, 12 songs later.
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I did a good amount of research though, and whenever I drank, I would hurt myself or others and fuel this vicious cycle of shame, self-loathing, and hopelessness.
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Trey: This is what people think Elon Musk feels like when he wakes up in the morning but I bet it's actually a lot heavier on the self-loathing.
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Comprised simply of Fernet Branca, creme de menthe, and ice, it sounded like an easy way to induce nausea when you're already in a weakened and self-loathing state.
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I did not wish to repeat the mistakes of those who do not age well and who accept the stereotypes and self-loathing that abound in an ageist culture.
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My pleasure and liberation lay in bed next to anguish and self-loathing, because the world had taught me that my wants were morally bankrupt and full of sin.
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So the next time a friend's promotion or engagement sends you down a jealous rabbit hole of self-loathing, use those feelings as a blueprint for your next success.
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While I didn't miss the years of self-loathing, it was hard to believe how bad the starving was when I came across mirror-selfies in my camera feed.
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As Mark rants about unemployment, Cassie cashes in at a new media company; their parallel lives expose the ambivalence in a generation seen as both entitled and self-loathing.
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SA: This is going to sound sort of odd, but maybe all the guilt and self-loathing and confusion you're feeling is a way of keeping your brother close.
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Renato Schuch gives a terrifying and complex performance as the perpetrator, Reda, investing the character with disarming charisma before exploding in an outburst of brutality mixed with self-loathing.
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"What critics said: "Zendaya is reinvented as the self-destructive, self-loathing Rue, in what is a truly astonishing, mesmerising performance, upending every expectation of what she could do.
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She decides she doesn't want that anymore, the "mind prison" of self-loathing, and over the course of one monologue, you can see her become freer and more determined.
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From a constitutional perspective, it looked like a mosh pit of self-loathing members, politicians eager to be declared a functional non-entity in our tripartite (now bipartite) system.
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It is an escape hatch for both self-loathing and politics, a kind of way out that allows us to rethink responsibility across inhuman timelines and modes of experience.
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What I like best about Mysterio is the way that Far From Home curlicues this borderline self-loathing into its themes about fake news and other manipulations of reality.
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Now he's 67 and making a living doing halfhearted gigs in clubs, delivering routines laced with profanity and self-loathing, and snarking at his long-suffering manager (Edie Falco).
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But in its self-loathing and you-loathing and semi-joking lists of what hipsters do and don't do, it remains a valuable cultural artifact of a more innocent period.
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Mart Crowley's groundbreaking 1968 play The Boys in the Band has polarized audiences over the years for its depiction of self-loathing in the closeted gay community of the 1960s.
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The movie version of Barnum believed in his oddities, and he coerced them, back when they were trembling and self-loathing, onto the stage to perform for a jeering audience.
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It's common for people with eating disorders, such as orthorexia, to feel guilt or self-loathing when they stray from their diet, according to the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA).
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Besides, I was promised a sense of glowing self-fulfillment, inner peace, and purification—a tempting call after my personal week of shameless overindulgence, social chaos, and subsequent self-loathing.
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An ever-widening, near-hairless gully that runs to the bald spot on the crown of my head, like a river of skin draining into the pool of self-loathing.
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We've all had those moments where our eyes were bigger than our stomachs, resulting in a takeout order that renders us immobile in a pile of regret and self-loathing.
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It's an obsession often manifested in derisive and self-loathing ways, because gay men often fetishize masculinity to the point that they look down upon and subordinate their feminine peers.
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"What Did I Do …?" is an ironic protest that also highlights the self-loathing that victims of abuse all too often assist in inflicting upon themselves: How would it end?
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His robots are freer than humans, he believes, because they are free from anxiety, self-loathing, and guilt (how this jives with Bernard's guilt over his dead son is confusing).
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That someone with reasonably tolerant parents in the mid-1980s could nonetheless feel such shame and self-loathing says a lot, by implication, about those who lacked such emotional support.
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Putting a shirt on over it was like actually seeing myself, and a tiny sliver of confidence poked out of the writhing mass of self-loathing that gender dysphoria created.
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Yet to cast doubt on this scenario ignores both the power differentials between men and women in society and the self-loathing survivors deal with in the aftermath of rape.
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One night, after feeling particularly annoyed with my time-wasting habit (but also not annoyed enough to stop), I felt the need to share my self-loathing with the world.
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Mr. Darrow, properly dashing and tortured as John, hasn't quite achieved that facility; his emphasis on the character's self-loathing and cynicism sometimes makes him seem hollow instead of harrowed.
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Thaddeus and Grace's new address on Riverview Road echoes that of "Revolutionary Road," and Spencer's novel tracks Yates's landmark 1961 work, with its pathology of suburban insecurity and self-loathing.
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It's about the kind of guilt, self-loathing and entrenched despair that can create a permanent personal hell, a form of solitary confinement where the prisoner is insensible to love.
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As simple as that sounds, that can lead you to great depths and it can change your relationship to troublesome feelings like anxiety and self-loathing and loathing and rage.
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He's deeply sad in a way Hannah recognizes, but it also becomes clearer with every passing minute that Chuck runs just as much on latent fury as he does self-loathing.
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As with any other kind of eating disorder or addiction, as with any kind of self-loathing mind game, the dream is never even sort of going to be the reality.
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Rather, there are a lot of gestures toward outrage, mockery, self-mockery, self-loathing, and cultural image–hijacking that, despite the gleeful, stupid exuberance, provide few moments of critical transcendent emancipation.
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Asking children sexually themed questions can give them a sense of "deep shame and self-loathing," he said, as well as groom them to expect explicit conversations while alone with adults.
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Tiffany's anxieties — about dysphoria, her self-loathing, her false belief that she could do anything to stop bigotry being hurled at her — are common to so many of us trans people.
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Only Prince could take a song about self-loathing and turn it into a stance; only he could take the laments of a pasty British white guy and make it sexy.
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In a self-proclaimed "Twitter meltdown," Hutchison wrote a number of posts that revealed a turmoiled inner life that bordered on self-loathing far beyond anything he put on a record.
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Slogans like "Black Is Beautiful" and "We're Here, We're Queer, Get Used to It!" became transformative taunts for generations of people schooled in the self-loathing of racism, sexism and heterosexism.
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"I like to think about how fashion is often elevated as an expression of personal style, like art you can wear, but it's also an expression of self-loathing," he said.
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Hour of the Wolf is often forgotten in discussions of seminal horror films, but it's horror at its finest — a raw look at a man consumed by self-loathing and fear.
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I stan a conflicted, redeemed, self-loathing hero, not an incestuous fuckboi, so for anyone in doubt, here are all the reasons I'm confident that Jaime will try to kill Cersei.
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But all have an annoying way of showing up again to tell her that, despite her self-loathing, the rest of the world doesn't see her the way she sees herself.
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But Maron deepens the role by exposing both the director's self-loathing and his genuine desire to make great movies (even if most people find his films so bad, they're funny).
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But I find your read fascinating, in that I didn't find the movie to be a mostly one-sided story from the point of view of a sad self-loathing divorcé.
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There is an air of self-loathing about this Carmen that explains why she not only accepts her death at the hands of her jealous lover but also actively orchestrates it.
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But Murphy lets the contradictions sizzle: he knows that schlock can double as great art; that self-loathing can work both as a goad to ambition and as an emotional crippler.
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Sigourney, a black woman whose power comes at the expense of her people — whom she has also enslaved — is constantly, painfully aware of her complicity and is poisoned by self-loathing.
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Particularly in its second and third seasons, Louie seemed to evince an all-consuming empathy for humanity, undercut with a healthy sense of self-loathing on the part of C.K. himself.
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The pages have been decorated with 70 or so rumpled self-portraits (the singer's amour propre came streaked in self-loathing), with a dozen amateurish doodles of young women thrown in.
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In the whirlwind of his short life, Schiele became the character we encounter every morning in the mirror: moral and ethical, wanton and perverse, self-loathing and repugnant, sensual and free.
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BoJack Horseman, Netflix's exploration of depression and self-loathing disguised as a talking animal cartoon, is one of the best-written shows currently in production, but, good lord, it is sad.
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"He is fascinated by her, with this woman who was so powerful and yet is so dissatisfied and is full of self loathing and is powerless to change her circumstances," Zellweger says.
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Here's the funny thing, though: Once that sense of anticipation has given way to the actual moment of indulgence, that pleasure tends to be quickly followed by a third stage: self-loathing.
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BoJack Horseman is an animated comedy on Netflix about a washed up '90s sitcom star who's trying to figure out his life and career without drowning in self-loathing and existential despair.
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While the Shame Wizard — the incarnation of embarrassment and self-loathing who was season 2's primary antagonist — briefly appears when Andrew visits a Men's Rights group, he's otherwise absent this season.
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No more disillusionment here, no more self-loathing either: Florence Welch has given up drinking and found not only a way to be more creative but the courage to get truly personal.
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The strain of vulnerability that Stanfield conveys — eccentric, neurotic to the point of self-loathing, abject even — stems from the taut, visibly anxious personas of these predecessors from the stand-up stage.
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Its about a billion dollar industry that depends on women hating themselves" ... "Let's start a movement peeps, let's end predatory marketing practices that sell self-loathing to women from cradle to grave.
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If we wanted to feel a twang of self-loathing every time we looked in the mirror, we'd almost be tempted to say something along the lines of: "Talk about sour grapes!"
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"You talk to some of these people that have had grundles of sex partners and the self-loathing and basically the unhappiness and the self-hatred level is tremendously high," he said.
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While he has never done heroin or popped a pill (that we know of) his self-loathing and shame is recognizable to anyone with the slightest bit of experience with an addict.
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Their lovemaking is at times brutal, and Chia Chi is always filled with confusion and self-loathing for what she's volunteered to do in hopes of overthrowing the Japanese occupation of Shanghai.
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Aside from their first breakthrough single "Sex," a geyser of blue-balled self-loathing, their vitriol isn't haphazardly directed at women the way Future or Drake or Kanye or the Weeknd's is.
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They have pride in what they produce, in contrast to the visceral self-loathing my colleagues and I feel as a result of working in the absolute gutter of the cutlery industry.
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Cooking more often is a reward in itself, the kind of habit that leads to an increased sense of self-worth rather than the self-loathing that can accompany a Domino's order.
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Live Review Self-pity, self-mockery, self-righteousness, self-loathing, self-defense — long before the era of the selfie, Morrissey was writing songs that turned constant self-absorption into a blood sport.
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The relationship with food really acts as a metaphor for what someone is feeling… They are often consumed with self-loathing and wish to deny themselves any sort of nurturing and kindness.
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When Kevin, confused and self-loathing though he may be, articulates the desire to "let two competing facts exist in the same space," he might as well be speaking for the play.
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And his hostility toward Daryl came across as a combination of quasi-concern and projected self-loathing, Daryl's inner strength a rebuke to the moral compromises Dwight made for his sandwich privileges.
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Everyone is far too involved in each other's business, because that's how sitcoms work, but the show's screechy self-loathing makes that seem damning and toxic rather than just antic and fun.
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She obsesses over her weight, drools over terrible men, and spends many a night getting drunk with her equally miserable friends and sinking into her couch in a fit of self-loathing.
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The film is punctuated by violence and brutality, much of it committed by the film's protagonist, but Ms Ramsay's camera lingers most on Mr Phoenix in moments of existential despair and self-loathing.
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Part of the film's diagnosis is that Enitan, who grows up with black foster siblings but is mocked by white children from the neighborhood, develops a deep sense of self-loathing in childhood.
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They dredge up closely guarded kernels of self-loathing, in the same vein as Celeste's main antagonist, who looks nearly identical to Madeline and taunts her in the moments she is most vulnerable.
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At the end of the conversation, Annie is presented with a diagnostic that reveals, according to the NPB's system, that she has signs of borderline personality disorder, pathological grief, and intense self-loathing.
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Or that the photos of my friends gawking drunk into the camera while swigging a Meantime Pale Ale told him something about the vacuous sense of self-loathing that comes from metropolitan hedonism?
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" While those remarks passed mostly without comment in December, conservatives late Tuesday night lined up to take shots at Haley, with CNN political commentator Amanda Carpenter describing her speech as "GOP self-loathing.
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Meanwhile, Billie Piper's Lily, the show's equivalent of Frankenstein's Bride, remains the moral inverse of Vanessa: She embraces her angry self-loathing – she "owns" it, in other words, and this makes her fascinating.
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Only occasionally does the possibility of sex or romance between Quentin and Eliot emerge into text in The Magicians novels, and when it does, it is nearly always inflected with deep self-loathing.
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In the hazy days of our winter break, when we didn't leave the house for a week, I felt like the worst possible version of myself—my most depleted, anxious and self-loathing.
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And at their best, those songs skewer not only Rebecca's delusions but the viewers', too: that love will heal us, that our obsessions are selfless, and that our self-loathing makes us interesting.
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Seen another way, the attack was a crime motivated by a mixture of hatred against gay people with—judging by reports that Mr Mateen himself visited the club—an element of self-loathing.
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I love what I do, and I want to continue to be an actor, and I want health insurance and appetizers and the fleeting moments of catharsis punctuated by moments of self-loathing.
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These exercises summoned up an unparalleled array of self-loathing: Is this me, this lump of flesh, muscle and bone that keeps coming back for more, even though it ought to know better?
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BoJack, in particular, was a familiar archetype — deeply sad, steeped in self-loathing, quick with the sardonic one-liners, always deliberately pushing people away in spite of his desperate need to be loved.
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How did his fear — perhaps a result of his being bullied, beat up and called "Jew boy" while growing up in Tennessee — turn into hardened self-loathing and an active hatred of others?
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But what we're really thinking or feeling in the face of these richly colored snapshots — the sudden amping up of our envy, our self-loathing, our depression — stays hidden from Facebook's all-seeing eye.
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There are the terrible memes praising his old man, the self-conscious reliance on shitty touch-up apps to smooth his wrinkles, and the self-loathing documentation of the food that makes him fat.
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The media framed Grindr-organized orgies as the latest horror to befall gay and bisexual men, suffering HIV, psychosis, and terminal drug overdoses as a result of recklessness, self-loathing, and bad life choices.
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In recent releases it's an underlying feeling that Future is in on all of it — lines about his countless sexual conquests are delivered with, yes, braggadocio, but also bitterness and at times self-loathing.
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But sometimes — after, say, a particularly busy month — your entire wardrobe is piled on the floor and you avert your eyes whenever you walk by the clothing mountain to avoid pangs of self-loathing.
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The former is centred on the right-wing Alternative for Germany party (AfD), which often lambasts the "foul, red-green, 68er generation", and includes commentators who claim 1968 infected the country with self-loathing.
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"Sorry" is an apology letter of sorts, penned to a past self mired in substance abuse and self-loathing; all said and done, the track took three years of recovery and acceptance to complete.
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There is something almost vampiric about this public siphoning of hurt, from the self-loathing of a suicidal young man to the devastating anguish of a woman who survived a childhood of sex slavery.
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Rather than negotiate and reconcile with Chris's particular self loathing, Soloway turns I Love Dick into an unintentionally sympathetic ode to masculinity and marriage, albeit one peppered with the prerequisite dose of postmodern irony.
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Her self-hatred and self-loathing come gushing out (even if it's couched in self-deprecation) and this excoriation occurs because her rural isolation gives her almost no one else to share this with.
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Once underwater, Bojack's head is encased in a glass bubble and he is unable to speak as he floats around a bustling marine metropolis, haunted by his own thoughts of grandeur and self-loathing.
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That episode, "Terrorform," which ends with the crew facing the monster of Rimmer's self-loathing, made me cry so hard as a teenager that I refused to watch it again for nearly 20 years.
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For instance, "Peace of Mind" follows a tight, nearly hookless churn of the usual narcissism and self loathing but is kept brief only allowing space for the downtempo production to ride to it's end.
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How does Waller-Bridge take this mass of human pain (grief, self-loathing, class anxiety, dysfunctional female relationships, weird sex stuff) and refashion it into works that feel both bizarrely funny and scary real?
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Processing the self-loathing and hatred shaped by a fear of not having your family, community or the world accept you is a daunting task that must be addressed to live a healthy lifestyle.
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"I don't think snobbery, self-loathing, cynicism and hypocrisy are exclusive to that class," said Mr. Cumberbatch, a graduate of Harrow (and a great-grandson of Queen Victoria's consul general in Turkey and Lebanon).
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Simply put: I have spent the vast majority of my life living in a mental state of extraordinary self-loathing, and it has impacted how I've participated in the world in almost every way.
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In the TV series, we observe the mortifying life of a self-destructive 30-something incapable of adult self-reliance -- the title is a nickname which hints at the depths of her self-loathing.
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Two smaller Schutz works here are stronger: "Shame," a study in contorted female self-loathing, and especially "Open Casket," based on a famous photograph of Emmett Till, young, murdered and disfigured, in his coffin.
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He also published, with Dr. Paul Links, a handbook describing what he called good psychiatric management, intended for nonspecialists, patients and families dealing with the storms of rage and self-loathing of borderline personality.
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It added new ones, because Rebecca has a lot of unresolved emotional issues and Greg is a self-loathing alcoholic, and neither one of them is actually in a good place for a relationship.
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When Rochester asks Jane to be his mistress and live with him outside the bounds of marriage, in direct opposition to Jane's 19th-century moral code, her self-loathing urges her to agree with him.
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Years later, as I went through high school and most of college as a people-pleasing, self-loathing, ashamed, and guilt ridden person, I wondered where my need to be perfect 24/7 came from?
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In this historical context, Joe becomes ingratiating and antiblack, a self-loathing Harvard-educated black man spouting the kind of pseudo-scientific babble that was used for centuries to justify the enslavement of his people.
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Usually these writer characters, whether directly based on the people who created them or not, are depicted as self-loathing misanthropes who tell jokes just to get through another grueling day of being a human.
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It's a fascinating study in bitterness and self-loathing and reminded me more than once of that famous scene in Citizen Kane where the married Kanes grow further and further apart at the breakfast table.
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In last year's Manchester by the Sea, Affleck was mopey, self-loathing, and seized with guilt, whenever he wasn't punching a stranger at a bar after one too many bottles of Sam Adams Boston Lager.
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Filmed in one long take, Greg walks us through his growing dissatisfaction, his gnawing self-loathing, and his seething sense of thwarted ambition, all by glibly declaring he doesn't care about any of these things.
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The claims have prompted investigators to look into whether Mr. Mateen, who had called 911 pledging allegiance to the Islamic State, was also a closeted gay man consumed by feelings of self-loathing and revenge.
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The best part of these pages is that Gessen, in addition to some requisite self-laceration, allows Andrei to flail, mourn, fantasize and, sometimes, succeed without tipping him either into self-absorption or self-loathing.
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Nidetch lost her weight in her late 30s, after a lifetime of self-loathing and embarrassment; the last indignity was the time someone asked when her baby was due when she was definitively not pregnant.
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His confession is fraught with irony and his history is tragicomic; unlike the refugees of "The Refugees," he regards himself with the distance of self-loathing, for he has participated in assassinations while following orders.
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She said that she turned to alcohol to help her deal with a gnawing loneliness, self-loathing and fear that had buffeted her since she was a teenager, and by age 35, had contemplated suicide.
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It's the fog-cutting lucidity of Mr. Staples's lyrics that keeps his hip-hop auteurism grounded; he is routinely penetrating on recurring themes of suicide, self-loathing, self-love, cycles of violence and human intimacy.
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This is the kind of self-loathing cool kid one-upmanship that Lethem can write with exquisite precision — a similar sequence was one of the most heartbreaking parts of Fortress of Solitude — and here, it sings.
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This holds especially true in the case of BoJack's Todd (Aaron Paul), BoJack's former roommate who's constantly stuck in his own misadventure sidebars while everyone else is crumbling under the weight of their own self-loathing.
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Reliving my ill-formed takes on politics and feminism is also agony, of course, but most of the self-loathing I've experienced throughout manually deleting my tweets comes from how uncharitable I've been to other people.
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Its dysfunction continued to stroke a sick teenager's toxic ego, making me empty promises that I was different, that I could solve the equation — a route to thinness that always detoured into self-loathing — another way.
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What is going through Morris Day's mind, near the end of "Purple Rain," when he's suddenly alone in the backstage hallway—when, out of nowhere, he loses his swagger and looks cosmically sad and self-loathing?
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"Oofie" takes all the vividness he once levelled at New York and channels it inward, offering a despondent portrait of self-loathing that doubles as a critique of the hype-hungry nature of contemporary rap fandom.
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And they were so racked with self-loathing and guilt and et cetera, all that stuff that went along, and there were four of us, for God's sake, and they just, you know, couldn't do it.
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After I got out of the county jail, I didn't deal with my myriad issues, instead I tried to cram them into the tiny piece of myself that housed all my pain, self-loathing and insecurities.
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Gray holds court with a nebbishy, self-mocking churn of anecdote and lamentation, and his humor, in the outer-borough Ashkenazi style, can leave one unsure where the shtick ends and the real self-loathing starts.
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"Rotten Tomatoes critic score: 83% (season 1)What critics said: "Zendaya is reinvented as the self-destructive, self-loathing Rue, in what is a truly astonishing, mesmerising performance, upending every expectation of what she could do.
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It's the same gut-wrenching hour of contemplation, self-loathing, and rage we've come to expect from How To Get Away With Murder, just without a wraparound-porch home base to tie everyone together in their misery.
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From the pages of William Blake to Anton LaVey to dualistic, fundamentalist Christian screeds, he wears many outfits, some of which speak to productive, amelioratory rebellion while others compel one to steep in paranoia and self-loathing.
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He develops unshakable feelings of shame and self-loathing, until he ultimately discovers that he's not a duck at all, but a fucking incredible swan, so suck on that, you flat-billed, corkscrew dicked, quack-happy assholes.
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And my inability to lose it, or maybe my refusal to try — because I know it's rooted in self-loathing, because I'm fed up with having to care — makes me feel like even more of a failure.
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And that perpetually works against the intended personal qualities of the story, which is theoretically as much about one girl navigating her own self-loathing as it is about a huge, symbolic battle between good and evil.
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The repetitive swiping motion puts you in a trance of quite self-loathing where the stakes are just low enough to be both engaging and tranquilizing, like a fidget spinner in the form of a human Rolodex.
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Detractors will argue that Rebecca's power anthem of "self-indulgent self-loathing" doesn't have the witty rhyme structure or clever wordplay of other songs on this list, but for sheer force and power, it can't be beaten.
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Anna, when not addressing us in her breathless mode, is engagingly self-doubting and self-loathing, by turns warmly funny and panic-stricken; she's also an aficionada of the best of Hitchcock and the "Thin Man" movies.
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But I think it's important that we're humanizing the bigot, that you realize that Ben is someone who's self-loathing, who's struggling through his inaction, struggling though his own feeling that the world is passing him by.
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She immigrated to the United States as a child, and said she struggled with self-confidence as she tried to come to terms with her identity, to overcome a "brown girl's self-loathing" and to fit in.
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When it comes to "melty mush silly" Birdie, bullied and beaten by her husband, Ms. Linney uses her sweetness to poignant effect, while Ms. Nixon's heartbreaking trills and flutters layer Birdie's pain with a complicating self-loathing.
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Yet throughout, Reines whips us through emotional states (ecstasy, depression, self-loathing, infatuation), physical locations (Queens, Arizona, Lithuania, Haiti) and forms of communication (diary entries, dreams, couplets, aphorisms) — all to consider what we're doing to one another.
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Both on his TV shows and in his standup, he alternates between being the forthright guy who knows better than everyone else and the self-loathing, out-of-touch guy who realizes he knows nothing at all.
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At one point, she sleeps with a geeky source (for an article she never files or even really starts), then apathetically tries to pitch an editor on the experience as a self-loathing take on geek girls.
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We haven't spoken for more than ten years, but even now there are words he used that serve as the soundtrack to my self-loathing on days when I can't find the strength to think more of myself.
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Will Toledo's self-loathing lyrics are so devastating, going in circles around the highs and lows that come with self-medicating: "Drugs are better with friends are better, friends are better with drugs are better," and so forth.
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Hank was a lonely young man filled with self-loathing who found himself incapable of connecting with other people, and as he teaches Manny about the world he slowly begins teaching himself about his own failings and faults.
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As the butt of every joke, he wallowed in self-loathing, before turning to extreme dieting, which turned into an eating disorder that allowed him to lose more than 100 pounds but also landed him in the hospital.
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These days, the bad man charts his own story line, in which love becomes yet another incitement for self-loathing, and sex is a pathology—a way to cope with insecurity, or to puncture a deep-down numbness.
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Their younger daughter, Jane, who spent critical hours on the night in question cowering in a closet, has grown up (or at least gotten older) and departed for college, a mass of rebellion, resentment and caustic self-loathing.
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Haunted by self-loathing and a sense of his own ugliness — he is repeatedly likened to a boar or rooting hog — he found refuge in a feeling of entitlement, blustering overconfidence, misogyny and a merciless penchant for bullying.
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Celeste is a video game about overcoming struggles both internal and external, telling the story of a girl named Madeline who challenges herself to climb an increasingly punishing mountain while confronting her own anxiety, self-loathing, and depression.
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Welcome the Worms is imbued with the sneering sheen and melodic punk bones of their LA pop-punk foremothers, with songwriting that tackles self-loathing, isolation, destructive relationships, and other adventures in adulting with "oo-whoo-hoo" gusto.
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One of comedy's defining pathologies, alongside literal pathologies like narcissism and self-loathing, is its swaggering certainty that it is part of the political vanguard, while upholding one of the most rigidly patriarchal hierarchies of any art form.
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You don't need wild story machinations to enjoy Lucille Bluth (Jessica Walter) lobbing 80-proof Molotov cocktails of sarcasm, or Gob (Will Arnett) spiraling into self-loathing, or Buster (Tony Hale) being fitted with yet more artificial hands.
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Mike blames himself for his son's death, as longtime viewers know, and his guilt and self-loathing have recently been re-triggered by his murder of the homesick construction manager, Werner Ziegler, at the end of Season 4.
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Caelynn's honest discussion of the assault, victim-blaming, self-loathing, and the difficulties of seeking justice afterward made for the most nuanced, culturally-relevant discussion I have ever seen on a show that often feels frozen in time.
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But the discrepancy between how people feel about selfies, and the fact that people still take selfies, might not have much to do with self-loathing, and everything to do with a blind spot we only reserve for ourselves.
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To meet her goals, Kate joins a support group and shares a few choice chuckles from across the room with Toby (who possesses the wit of Santino Fontana as Greg on Crazy Ex-Girlfriend without the constant self-loathing).
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But it's hard to make fun of someone who is so clearly acting out of deep-rooted self-loathing, and so desperate to be "normal" that she'd rather spend her life pretend than be comfortable in her true identity.
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"Admittedly, my father was experiencing debilitating health issues, but had he not had to bear the shame and self-loathing that stemmed from his defense of Larry Nassar, I believe he would have had a fighting chance for life."
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But rather than reflect the seeming motivations of real-life killers such as Elliot Rodger, Alek Minassian, and Dylann Roof, who claim to have acted out of perceived rejection, self-loathing, and bigotry, the movie does something more troubling.
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The jury was earlier shown footage that Jutting filmed himself during the sexual torture and killing of Ningsih over the course of three days, capturing his taunts and boasts as well as his remorse and moments of self-loathing.
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" When I asked Ryder what he would tell people like me who might suffer from planner self-loathing, he offered this: "It's not about how it looks; it's about how effective it is at moving you toward what matters.
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In a matter of minutes, I was freed from the ability to pull, the impulse that had ruled my life and instilled in me a deep sense of self-loathing for...well, for as long as I could remember.
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You know that you are dealing with a "Little Comment," as opposed to just a comment, when on hearing it you feel a stab of either irritation or self-loathing (or more often, an uneasy blend of the two).
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And though Mr. Lee is hardly the runty, pockmarked character Ms. Cho describes in the script, he is all too believable as someone so full of self-loathing that he cannot bear to see himself in other people's eyes.
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Brief moments of peace can be found amongst the din on the record's slower tracks like "Losing Myself" and "Somewhere in Between," but for the most part, We're Not Talking's stories of heartbreak and self-loathing clatter and sprint.
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While the passé-seeming self-loathing of lead Alicia "Plum" Kettle (Joy Nash), a striving magazine writer and plus-size woman, might fall into the latter category, the over-the-top, #MeToo-flavored revenge fantasy hidden throughout the series certainly isn't.
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In this show's world, the most famous sitcom star of the '21980s was a talking horse named BoJack (voiced by Will Arnett), who now spends his time flailing around his mansion and trying not to drown in his own self-loathing.
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The country will use newsstands and corner stores to sell porn passes to adults that will allow them to look at naked people online while also instilling in them a great sense of shame and self-loathing, as is English tradition.
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Like everyone else who lives in Gilead, Nick is complicit in its violence; that's why he's constantly smearing his self-loathing all over Eden, a child to whom he has done terrible things in order to save his own life.
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When it delves into Patty's self-loathing, it can't avoid suggesting that she was right to hate herself, that fat people should hate themselves, and that they should hurt their bodies until they get better — which is to say skinny.
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Music about self-loathing can be relatable and effective, but there are instances when he seems close to crossing over into misanthropy; Young felt too weighted, and probably too smart, to enjoy the limousine lifestyle presented to him by fame.
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At our great distance, the particulars no longer mean anything, and Shakespeare's play reads as a case study of a demagogue's rise to power in a corrupt society—and of the self-loathing that drives the demagogue in the first place.
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There are laughs and zingers of traditional television comedy, but only as a reprieve from Gretchen's clinical depression, Jimmy's grief, Edgar's PTSD, Vernon's broken spirit, Becca's self-loathing, and that time that Lindsay stabbed her husband just to feel something.
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I, too, spiraled into self-loathing and made awful decisions because I desperately wanted to fit into society's expectations of men, just as Shinji does when he begins to question his self-worth as a pilot and a human being.
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As I grew out of my cherubic cheeks and into a mostly formed human, my T-zone became a foreign landscape pitted with scarred valleys from my impatient picking, covered with volcanic zits ready to erupt with teenage self loathing.
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A scathing piece by Lee Smith in the Weekly Standard analyzed the repulsive nature of the acts that populate stories about Weinstein, connecting it with Weinstein's own self-loathing and his intuitive grasp of how to project that onto others.
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The best thing about that lottery mania is that it at least proves Americans still aspire to achieve massive success, as opposed to our European counterparts who seem half-deadened by generations of socialism and a cottage industry of self-loathing.
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The song, he has said, was a cry for help—the shouts of "lager lager lager" were self-loathing irony, and as "Born Slippy" exploded after the film's success, he was dismayed at its appropriation as a beery drinking anthem.
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Years of bombardment from advertising, movie stars, and models — and supposed health experts who build their empires on making you feel inadequate and insecure — naturally results in deep self-loathing for any part of your body that isn't nearing 0% fat.
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She also encouraged me to try dance classes, and while I still haven't (I can't submit to L.A. prices for an hour of self-loathing), I danced in my living room, without alcohol or judgment, and had a great, sexy time.
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"Read more: 14 reasons you're not getting over your ex — even if they were totally wrong for youEttin recently received an email from a former client who was experiencing the negative thought spiral which they called a "total self-loathing rut.
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But this one has been written and shaped for public consumption; I wish Mr. Brown's editor had noted that there's a moment, as imperceptible as the changing of the seasons, when repeated self-criticism morphs into a twitchy self-loathing.
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His movements are meticulous, his stares into the camera by turns chilling and blush-inducing; all the while, he and the band unfurl into insidious disco pop camp, navigating the space between self-loathing and sex, as only Pulp can.
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James Blake has always been at his best dissecting his insecurities, as on 2011's "I Never Learnt To Share" and 2016's "I Hope My Life (1-800 Mix)," songs that respectively dealt with self-loathing and self-doubt.
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With the gay-rights movement evolving quickly and vocally even as the play was still in the midst of its initial run, some critics attacked it as presenting an image of gay men that was unflattering and full of self-loathing.
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Going into uncomfortably personal detail about awkward sexual encounters, self-loathing, and loneliness, that record seeks out all the darkest places of the soul, plainly articulates all the stuff we're generally not supposed to even think, and sets it all to music.
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Available on: YouTube The Jewel in the Crown Enjoyably vicious, somewhat overripe soap opera about the members of the British Raj in India during World War II. The most vivid characters here are all rotters: racist, snobby, drunk, self-loathing and kinky.
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A dose of homophobia was added to the usual mix of religious fanaticism and self-loathing—a particularly potent dose, it appears, because it turns out the killer may have been gay himself and had visited Pulse at least a dozen times before.
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Mr. Heard's furious pinwheel of resentment is supported, if not stabilized, by Lisa Eichhorn's self-effacing portrayal of his alcoholic wife and Jeff Bridges's turn as their self-loathing best friend, an unenthusiastic boat salesman who moonlights as a penny-ante gigolo.
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Unlike so many other extreme doom recordings, there are no histrionic throwaway syllables here, no endless misery or self-loathing; intense emotion (specifically negative emotion) is obviously an important, intrinsic doom metal hallmark, but as Usnea shows, despair and grief take many forms.
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Prepare yourself for another season of trash juice, self-loathing and questionable life choices: You're the Worst has been renewed for Season 4, it was announced Wednesday by Eric Schrier and Nick Grad, presidents of original programming for FX Networks and FX Productions.
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What I do accept about myself is there is a demon in my brain, one that tries to persuade me that slicing my neck with a serrated knife could be a plausible solution for the pain and self-loathing brought on by depression.
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It only gets harder and harder, but I've learned to have some faith in my self-loathing and self-pity, knowing that it will crest at some point and in a state of exhaustion and disrepair I will get some crap down.
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Though you spend the majority of the trek fighting against and trying to escape "shadow Madeline"—or, rather, her self-loathing and low self-esteem—you ultimately crest the mountain by realizing that mental illness isn't something you can browbeat into submission.
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The smart, moving twist, as penned by Marti Noxon, is that when Buffy and Angel (excuse me, Angelus) end up possessed, the gender roles are reversed, with Buffy consumed by the guilt and self-loathing James feels for killing the person he loved.
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The episode continues to crosscut between the Kingdom's preparations for their offensive and Ezekiel's desperate scramble to stay alive after it goes belly-up, creating a contrast between the faith they put in him and his self-loathing over having betrayed it.
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The most moving parts of "Real American" come when Lythcott-Haims stares unflinchingly at her own self-loathing, writing about the racist encounters of her childhood that convinced her from a young age that there was something inherently wrong with being black.
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It takes a lot for a child to grow up in the shadow of such a narcissistic parent without surrendering to self-loathing and doubt, but it seems at first that Rachel has managed to find some peace and a place for herself.
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Amid a fog of self-loathing, I put out a tweet asking if any successful (read: productive) night owls could make themselves known and, while waiting to hear back, ignored the actual work I was already late starting, to do some night owl research instead.
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The Season Two finale spent much of its time underscoring Jimmy's loyalty toward his brother Chuck, maintained with such disregard to his own well-being that he is literally willing to confess to a felony in order ensure that Chuck is spared any self-loathing.
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Later that month, some young netizens were frustrated when Bojack Horseman, an animated American TV series about a half-man/half-horse former sitcom star, and popular among the "sang" generation for his self-loathing and cynicism, was pulled from Chinese streaming site iQiyi.
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There was a time in my life, as a self-loathing adolescent with a yet-to-be-diagnosed serotonin deficiency, where I truly believed that my ability to become confident and well-liked by my peers was based solely on the appearance of my hair.
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But, as evidenced by the snarling rebuke of "Deborah" and the self-loathing lust of "Lonely You," there was something transcendent coming through in Fortune's catchy songcraft, something far more meaningful and real than than the dead rose-cosplay of her black-clad soundalikes.
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As Jong-Goo, Kwak swings from moments of comical incompetence as the fuddy-duddy local policeman to moments of barely concealed self-loathing to moments of absolute horror and rage as his distrust of the Japanese stranger and his fear for his daughter grows.
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The query is submitted by Dr. Spielvogel, the psychoanalyst to whom the novel's eponymous protagonist, Alexander Portnoy, has for the previous several hundred pages poured out his heart and soul in a sustained, wildly free-associating aria of bawdy reminiscence and intense self-loathing.
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Whatever the case, a growing collection of movies sees the feelings generated by the pressure placed on young women – anger, guilt, shame, fear, self-loathing – explode in a bloody fashion, catapulting their heroines out of the realm of reality and straight into mythological waters.
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Yet if there was one figure who came to symbolize this decline, one pantomime villain into whom the great British public—or at least the media—projected all their self-loathing and contempt, it was Johnny Borrell: the white-trousered, turbo-mouthed singer of Razorlight.
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But if someone has had two full courses of traditional antidepressants, and still wears a thick-coat of self-loathing, can't get out of bed or make eye contact with loved ones, this new medication, with appropriate supervision and caution, could be a game-changer.
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Emmanuel Finkiel's "A Decent Man," the story of a bitter, unemployed working-class father (Nicolas Duvauchelle) who is mugged and wrongly accuses a young Arab, is a squirm-inducing portrait of a Gallic Everyman curdled by frustration and self-loathing into a social menace.
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So it is definitely a cause for celebration that the self-loathing title characters of "Boys" are now being portrayed — in the play's Broadway debut — by successful, and in some cases wildly popular, mainstream actors who are (to use a quaint phrase) openly gay.
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Rachel Bloom and Aline Brosh McKenna's musical comedy dissection of a woman and her mental illness started out in its first season winking at its title, but very quickly left that behind as Rebecca Bunch (Bloom) dove headfirst into blinding narcissism, self-loathing, and despair.
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I think with a pop song you have the ability to get something stuck in people's heads, and I just want it to be a mantra that kind of is much more self-love than what we often times feel, which is self-loathing and insecurity.
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And on days when I down the particular cocktail of nostalgia and self loathing instead of something sensible, like coffee, I climb through my inbox to that forbidden zone, where shards of my past emotional state live on in saccharine all-caps exclamations and sweet sentences.
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To the Editor: The Orlando tragedy allows us the opportunity to observe the destructive intersection of the private self-loathing and instability of a handful of Muslim young adults and the siren call of ISIS and other extremist groups communicated by social media and the internet.
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Created by Marti Noxon, based on the thriller novel by Sarai Walker, "Dietland" finds its misfit antihero figure in a furious fat girl, Plum Kettle (Joy Nash), a self-loathing nebbish who ghostwrites the editor's letter for a cruel fashionista (Julianna Margulies, her eyebrows set on "evil").
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And as Mr. Honnold, all eyes and ears and boyish eagerness, brightly speaks of an emotionally isolated childhood and the once "bottomless pit of self-loathing" that has driven him upward, his meticulous preparations to scale El Capitan in Yosemite National Park take on a ritualistic cast.
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This episode has brutal moments and legitimate shocks, and much in the way the acting class is an externalization of Barry's own social performance, these fights are a physicalization of Barry's turmoil, his self-loathing, his ostensible desire to change and his deep fear that he can't.
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The watcher, at the end of the point, turns into the critic, and I know Mr. Gallwey is on the money because I frequently demean myself with a vigor and intensity that is somehow free of self-loathing — as if I'm yelling at an entirely different person.
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Headley remains artfully vague about what it is about Gren that makes those who look at him think that he's a monster: we only know that he has long nails, and that when he tries to draw himself, he draws a black blur of self-loathing.
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Lichtman, a remarkable thinker and social satirist, fills his first 50 pages with a misleadingly pedestrian cycle of basic cowardice, random aggression, flagrant self-congratulation and garden-variety self-loathing, until a Suboxone strip chops up the rhythm of his prose and the book begins in earnest.
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Instead, it's just glowing remarks about a man who would one day court white supremacists, along with a shockingly long amount of time dedicated to the boring family life of Trump's fictional employee Stan, a self-loathing man who is cruel to Angel and her fabulous sequin tops.
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But what's striking about the multitude of A Star Is Born remakes is that the core story is always the same: An impossibly famous man whose career has been ravaged by years of drinking and self-loathing discovers a fledgling female star who's struggling to live her dream.
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The apathy and self-loathing that characterized 90s youth culture combined with the increased popularity of heroin—which had lost some of its stigma once people started snorting it in the wake of the AIDS crisis—informed not just the way the decade sounded, but the way it looked.
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A skilled humorist as well as a tender yet trenchant observer of human behavior and the social forces that so often control it, Gaines has a particular gift for sustaining a tension between self-loathing and self-grandeur — his own as well as that of the people around him.
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These have more of the conventional contours of a thriller, verging at moments on the ridiculous, but even here the novel is careful to grant Livia the full complexity of her awful history, the murderousness, the helplessness, the sorrow and the self-loathing that underlie her adult strength.
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This isn't a book that says it's fine to escape yourself with drugs and alcohol, or sex, or isolation—it's not, we need to look after ourselves—but it dismantles the shame and self-loathing that can fester when the issues that affect us are pushed into the shadows.
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Artists have been employing billboards since the 1960s, with everyone from Joseph Kosuth to Jeff Koons to Félix González-Torres taking advantage of the most public of canvases and, more often than not, using it to indulge in a brash sort of self-loathing, criticizing either billboards or art.
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Feldstein brings a disarming guilelessness to Johanna, so that even at her hardest, cruelest, and most self-loathing, we never lose sight of the eager young fangirl she used to be — but the storytelling is such that Johanna's ups and downs always seem one step ahead of our comprehension.
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That's the dependable specialty of LVL UP and Cloud Nothings, two young, guitar-led bands that are children of '90s alternative rock (Neutral Milk Hotel, Built to Spill, Nirvana), but not strict revivalists, borrowing also from later waves of pithy, loud, often self-loathing emo and pop-punk.
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His career-long fixation on his own contradictions eventually consolidated into an aesthetic, one that gave rise to a generation of male artists, such as Drake and The Weeknd, who wallow in soft self-loathing and explain away their loutish behavior as the result of melancholy and bruised ego.
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Fresh off a particularly harsh bout of self-loathing and the horrifying death by overdose of his old co-star, BoJack drove out of Los Angeles with the resigned slump of a (horse)man trying to find a literal dead end to match the ones in his own mind.
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Watching the expressions flashing across his face, we can see his surprise and his disappointment, his understanding that he won't be able to change the mobster's mind, and the self-loathing that comes from knowing that he's about to take a paper bag full of money and walk away from Lester.
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From there, you've got approximately seven seconds to reconsider your life choices through a cinematic-style montage of increasingly horrific butterfly effects that will unfold over the coming months and weeks until you're left dead in by the side of the road in a pit of jagged glass and self-loathing.
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The meta-ironic tone started pre-2016 with Twitter accounts like So Sad Today—who kickstarted the miserable one-liners about panic attacks and anxious self-loathing (and who also writes for VICE)—and joke anxiety Twitter accounts, but was fully adopted across social media and Twitter in particular this year.
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Professor Bartky, who taught philosophy and gender and women's studies at the University of Illinois at Chicago, contended that women suffered from self-loathing, shame and guilt — internalized oppression, she called it — fostered by cultural cues about their bodies that devalue them if they do not meet the prescribed standard.
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"We are beginning to turn away from focusing on our problems with whites, to matters involving blacks as human beings," he said in an interview in 1982 in The New York Times about the play, which explored self-loathing and racial tension among black soldiers in a predominantly white American military.
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Sue Ellen struggled for years to get sober and stay sober: J. R. made serenity impossible, but it was really Sue Ellen's battle with low self-esteem, betrayal, envy and self-loathing that proved painful to watch through her relapses — but ultimately pretty inspiring as she achieved stretches of sobriety.
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All these people, I looked at them as if they were speaking Mandarin or discussing string theory, with their ease around their food and their ease around their bodies and their ability to live their lives without the doubt and self-loathing that brings me to my arthritic knees still.
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But Genesis and her family are still haunted by the past — including her dark-skinned father's self-loathing and grief over a childhood tragedy and the prejudice of her light-skinned mother's family, who use "the paper bag test" to judge acceptable skin color (a test Genesis herself doesn't pass).
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Yet it feels like O'Connor goes deeper than simple joy, excavating that once-in-a-lifetime experience with all the rougher edges it is made from: the moments of anxiety and awkwardness, the intense, overbearing need to seek something out from all the unknown, the declarations of love and light self-loathing.
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On Twitter, an avatar flipped to Beyoncé in "Lemonade" or Prince reads like a pledge to a newly materialized online club; a bizarre cartoon points to a person who tweets frequently and with open self-loathing; an unhatched egg that appears automatically upon profile creation has become its own anti-avatar avatar.
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And while largely white denominations like the United Church of Christ, the Episcopal Church and the Presbyterian Church (USA) affirm gays and lesbians, most black churches in America still have a "don't ask, don't tell" policy that forces its LGBTQ members to live in the closet or be consumed by self-loathing.
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Others have scattered to the four winds, including Bill (James McAvoy), now a successful novelist; Richie (Bill Hader), who's spun his talent for wisecracks into a career as a self-loathing stand-up comic; and Beverly (Jessica Chastain), now a successful fashion designer whose abusive marriage echoes her relationship with her father.
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Any of the other attendees at the treatment center could probably make for a more dynamic protagonist — like Xavier Dolan as a true believer channeling his self-loathing into a faux-militaristic anger, or Troye Sivan as a reluctant presence who's figured out the right words to mouth in order to get home sooner.
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I'm thinking that contempt is at the root of Nearly 30 year old stuff / Flowers in vases / Bowls of fruit / Fishes on sticks / Clipper ships / Kay Ballard / Nipsey Russell / And a few cocksuckers, but despite Leibowitz's claims to the contrary in the exhibition press release and the presentation of the work, it's not self-loathing.
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The new album, divided into A and B sides, with Mr. Lukens and the band's other songwriter, Jake Ewald, each taking a half, still clocks in under 30 minutes but builds on emo's standard themes — fresh emotional wounds, imagined revenge and self-loathing — to confront more grown-up concerns, namely loss and mental illness.
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I've seen the singer-songwriter's work described as "murder folk" in more than a few places, which is both delightful and apt, since his output camps out at the crossroads of Devil Makes Three, 16 Horsepower, and Danzig, and his lyrics concern themselves with murder as often as they do love, libations, and self-loathing.
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Aline Kominsky (who would soon take the name of her famous and infamous boyfriend, Robert Crumb) was berated for drawing strips that female cartoonists in her collective thought were too crude and confessional, not uplifting enough, wallowing in the depths of self-loathing — about being too fat, too sexually voracious, too loud, too neurotic.
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Drawing on myriad genres and techniques — portraits, nudes, fashion spreads, medical micrographs — Nathalie Herschdorfer, the director of the Museum of Fine Arts in Le Locle, Switzerland, approaches the body as a nebulous and dynamic organism, a site for self-invention, a source of self-loathing, and an arena for personal myth and public scrutiny.
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As has often been noted, the Regency romance is a cross between "Pride and Prejudice" and "Jane Eyre": Either the lovers discover their true affinity through their intelligence and humor or, as mousy Jane does with fierce Mr. Rochester, the heroine tames her man by helping cure him of his anger, depression, self-loathing, trauma.
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A person may be at risk of committing suicide when he or she expresses hopelessness or self-loathing, when he or she starts joking about "after I'm gone," starts giving away prized possessions, seems preoccupied with death, suddenly withdraws or suddenly appears calm after a period of depression, as if some decision has been made.
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Rather than accept that I was different from my uni halls neighbour, who regularly went rowing at 5am, I tried to fight it and slowly sank into a pit of self-loathing that a year later ended in me not getting out of bed for two weeks, trying to kill myself and dropping out of the course.
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It was with Josh's best friend, sardonic and self-loathing Greg, that Rebecca was able to be herself — and it seemed clear that in classic romantic comedy form, Rebecca would eventually realize that Greg was the guy she was meant to be with, and that he had been right there in front of her all along.
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As written by Rene Gube in "I'm Not the Person I Used to Be," Greg is pretty much the same guy, but healthier: He still has the sardonic charm that made him so likeable back in season one ("That's funny, you are Greg, you're funny," Rebecca marvels when he cracks a joke), only now it's less viciously self-loathing.
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But what's done is done, so as investors recover from their high-fee, mediocre-return hangover and work through the self-loathing that should come with it, here are five commonsense rules for wealthy folks and managers of pension funds and college endowments to keep in mind should they ever be tempted by over-promising fund managers again.
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Having been showered in glowing headlines and rhapsodic prose for his role in Leicester's title glory, Vardy was instantly plunged into the maelstrom of self-loathing that followed England's defeat to Iceland, accompanied as it was by several days of national mourning, despairing back pages and general angst on our streets and in our Twitter feeds.
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" "After flirting with medication for my clinical depression for a couple years," he told VICE, "I finally sucked up my pride, realized the brain I was issued at birth had faulty wiring, and decided to try to fix it with something other than workaholism, jokes, self-loathing-as-anesthetic, and 'fun with friends'—all increasingly inadequate remedies or distractions.
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I think there is so much value in putting myself through the very difficult experiences of the character eight times a week because I think it communicates — on a macro-level, the human condition, and on a micro-level, third-generation malaise, self-loathing, the fear of immigrants usurping positions of power from hegemonic cultures like mine.
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My co-teacher and I modeled this process with our own artifacts, and our students laughed as I shared angsty feelings of self-loathing when I danced to Nirvana's "Smells like Teen Spirit" alone in my bedroom, and at my co-teacher as she described the ordeal of trying to run with a Discman without having her CD skip.
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That is, after all how Diane — perhaps BoJack's truest friend in the whole world — explains her friend to himself when, in a fit of self-loathing, he asks her to essentially destroy his career by writing the sort of exposé of his terrible deeds that has taken down so many other Hollywood bigwigs, in our reality and his.
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But their exchange about Jewish identity seemed worth reproducing in full below — not because of its references to Borscht Belt humor and Jewish mothers (though I personally enjoyed that) but for the light it sheds on a much bigger question about the compulsions driving overachievers and whether the path to success is necessarily fraught with self-loathing.
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Which is why I'm fairly convinced that our self-image is only as good as the last mirror we looked in, though I'm willing to concede that there might be some rare birds out there for whom an unflattering glass slab is just that, and not a reason to feel a crushing sense of self-loathing that lingers for days.
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I need to be convinced that it's worth my time to immerse myself inside this sad self-loathing man's headspace for the length of a divorce, that I will get something interesting and new and artistically compelling out of it that I haven't already gotten from the five thousand other divorce stories I've already consumed, and Marriage Story never entirely convinced me.
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Vinyl The record company president Richie Finestra has been transforming his rage into self-loathing, but beating a man to death (in last week's pilot) marked a turning point: He's directing his anger outward, and everything he encounters is in danger, whether that's an employee who gets fired for talking back or a Jethro Tull LP that gets snapped in half for being insufficiently rocking.
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In a surprise to no one whose painfully pimple-ridden face has ever sent them into a downward spiral of self-loathing, a new study published in the British Journal of Dermatology just confirmed what so many severe acne sufferers have long known to be true: Living with the total drag of a skin condition can put you at a significantly higher risk of depression.
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Most emo screamers vent romantic anxiety with more self-regarding self-loathing than any listener who doesn't identify completely can stand; these guys subtract the content while maintaining the emotional impulse, their mood equally pained and sensitive for no good reason other than they regard their own lives as sweeping, anthemic, and likely doomed heroic sagas, as their stylistic conventions have taught them to do.
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At the beginning of this arduous process, I am drenched in self-loathing, but eventually I grow numb to the folly of all the people I've been, and even start to feel a little smug about the evolution I've undergone over the past three years: I have gone from a suicidally depressed attention junkie to a less suicidal and less depressed person who only likes attention sometimes.
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Far more interesting were Dawson's Creek's supporting characters: Joey, the intellectual tomboy who pulsed with a vague, amorphous anger at everything on the planet in general and whatever she was currently looking at in particular (drink every time "you have literally no idea why Joey is mad," advises one Dawson's Creek drinking game), and Pacey, whose wisecracking exterior masked deep wells of self-loathing.
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It sends them into spirals of self-loathing and catty desperation (nearly every character in the film has some sort of eating disorder; much of the female bonding takes place around vomiting in a bathroom stall) and pumps its main trio full of cocaine and champagne which leads to unforgivable mishaps, like ripping their friend's wedding dress to shreds the night before the ceremony.
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In its poetic breadth, the series reminded me of the wonderful Kate Atkinson book " Life After Life ," in which a woman keeps on dying, for nearly a century; of " Search Party ," the terrific show about another flawed bohemian solving a New York mystery; of " Fleabag ," that stylized masterwork about a liberated woman's self-loathing; and even of " The Leftovers ," with its loopy but sincere approach to grief.
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Sidelong is a this-didn't-work-but-I didn't-like-you-anyway kind of breaking-up album, and while it would be completely understandable for Years to take on the cynical, self-loathing qualities one expects of an album that comes from the liminality of life in between serious romantic relationships, Shook has never been one to do things the way anyone else does.
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Sometimes, after talking to one of the women, I would find myself alone in a parking lot or a conference room or a hotel room, or just at my desk having hung up the phone, and I would have to heave away the feelings of self-loathing the interviews brought up in me and also the tenderness, the intersection of which is absolutely deadly.
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" — was a standout, you can't beat Rory's self-loathing declaration after she reveals to Lorelai that she's having an affair with Logan (despite him being engaged to a French heiress called Odette) and just had a one night stand with a guy in a Chewbacca costume while out reporting on her Lines article: "I'm just a big, fat, wookiee-humping loser with no future.
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But this breezy shtick of Buchanan's, which appeals to dwindling crowds, is soon revealed to be just for show: Behind the scenes, Buchanan is a self-loathing narcissist with contempt for his audience and a love-hate relationship with acting—a character, Grant himself has admitted, that is not hugely dissimilar to the real Grant, representing a simultaneous savaging of Grant's screen and public personas.
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Hey, if you want to trade a significant portion of your day to save seven bucks on a box of doughnuts that will offer you fleeting joy until you inevitably overeat (after all, you are leaving the Krispy Kreme with not 12 but 24 doughnuts in order to get the deal) and then descend into a tailspin of self-loathing as you sugar-crash, follow your dreams!
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But the episode shines most when it breaks away from its standard animation and we see the illustrations of BoJack's mental gymnastics: When his daughter, Hollyhock, who he has newly met, says the house needs more milk, a mundane request for his car evolves into a manic spiral of self-loathing and paranoia as the camera cuts away to shaky drawings of the characters surrounded by a void.
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But your little quirk might not seem so charming when you see it manifested in Dan, the dispirited journalist in Helen Schulman's new novel, "Come With Me." Having slid down the greasy newspaper pole into joblessness, Dan has become a self-loathing middle-aged slacker who whiles away his days e-chatting with other underemployed writers and using Google to settle the picayune disputes anxiously raging in his brain.
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Through his art and his actions, Ocean has sought limitless freedom: from fans&apos ever-more aggressive expectations in the quantity-focused world of streaming; from restrictive contracts; from outdated industry gatekeepers; from reductive stereotypes; from heteronormative prejudice; from fear of vulnerability; from "shame or self-loathing"; from celebrity social media paradigms; even from the pressure that he&aposll keep serving as our pillar of openness and vulnerability.
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Stevens's weaselly use of the passive voice to avoid responsibility for what he's doing, his use of the third person to describe his father right to his father's face, and the repressed self-loathing suggested by his inability to bring himself to make contact with his father as he demotes him: It's all part and parcel of the way Ishiguro writes characters, which is to say the way he writes trauma.
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I still love dance music, and now I'm old enough to, you know, actually hear it out in clubs, I actually understand it better than I did back when I was a wide eyed innocent yet to even sip on a half pint, let alone stumble back to a shitty, shared flat at 7am with wide eyes and a Mariana's Trench sized pool of self-loathing to fall into.
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Like any good millennial, I am consumed by self-loathing and depression, so naturally, I exert an exceptional amount of emotional energy chastising myself for wasting my time hypnotized by the alluring blue light of the screen, wondering what type of person I would be if I read more books and drew pictures like I used to, and worried less about what internet randos think of me and who's destroying the world.
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But as the critic Hilton Als notes in his sharp, searching reconsideration of Baldwin's classic, the novel is more complicated than it's credited for being, as well as rich with self-loathing and doubt; it is, he argues, a book Baldwin "had to write, less as a way of discussing his sexuality than as a way of discussing what America had done to his sexuality, along with his capacity for intimacy and, indeed, the whole notion of masculinity" itself.
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Danny is a safe haven for people who don't fit in — a description that fits self-loathing Larry to a T. Cajoled into taking the stage, Larry gradually loosens up until he's belting out Kelly Clarkson's thematically appropriate "People Like Us" alongside drag queen Maura Lee Karupt (Alan Mingo Jr.) The bandages smothering him magically disappear, restoring his body to its pre-horrifically burned state, and the club fills with confetti as feathered dancers join the uplifting number.
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This is the only instance of heart in the show, a scene of real physical pain and confusion, and Close plays it to the hilt, but not hysterically, because she has something to hold on to as an actress, a reprieve from the endless mugging and grandstanding, which we know is just another form of self-loathing, dressed up in drag and played to the balcony, where the "boys" sit worshipping every man-generated blow to the heart, every mascara-stained moment. ♦
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Daniel is literally all of us nerds who spend too much time on the internet going on a date for the first time, desperately trying to make a connection with another human IRL, but he never learned how to communicate so he only communicates in memes: But the worst contestant of all had to be Jonathan, who is so filled with self-loathing that he made a "Asians have small dicks hurr hurr" joke at the expense of his own half-Chinese, half-Scottish self.
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"The fact that nineteen-eighties Afghanistan is the final setting of the most legendary and artistically significant gaming franchise in the history of time made you all the more excited to get your hands on it, especially since you've been shooting at Afghans in your games (Call of Duty and Battlefield and Splinter Cell) for so long that you've become oddly immune to the self-loathing you felt when you were first massacring wave after wave of militant fighters who looked just like your father," Kochai writes.
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This year's finalists included "His Bloody Project," a historical thriller by the Scottish writer Graeme Macrae Burnet; "Do Not Say We Have Nothing" by the Canadian author Madeleine Thien, which explores the legacy of China's Cultural Revolution; the Canadian-British author David Szalay's "All That Man Is," a collection of linked short stories about nine men in different phases of life; "Eileen," by Ottessa Moshfegh, which centers on a self-loathing young woman who works in a juvenile prison in New England; and "Hot Milk," a coming-of-age story by Deborah Levy.
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However, Freud may have been less on the nose when it came to cocaine's addictive properties and effects, writing: "It seems to me noteworthy—and I discovered this in myself and in other observers who were capable of judging such things—that a first dose or even repeated doses of coca produce no compulsive desire to use the stimulant further; on the contrary, one feels a certain unmotivated aversion to the substance"—all a far cry from the anguished 5 AM plate-scraping and desperate, self-loathing text messages.
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Self-loathing is inherent only insofar as it's learned behavior from those around you: your not-boyfriends that kick you out the back door and are horrified at the idea that their friends might know about you, your thin friends who blithely suggest that you go shopping together or that they never think of you as fat because, to them, fat means ugly and stupid and lazy and gross and you're none of those things, your mother and her pained flinching or blunt reprisal of your body because that's what she learned from TV and movies and music and magazines and from her mother.
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Despite the upbeat music and typically flamboyant drag performance, the lyrics express frustration and self-loathing: What the fuck is wrong with me I don't like who it is I see I look in the mirror and it all becomes clearer Slowly, I'm being forced to see You were the one I knew it, but I blew it, yeah You were the one, the one for me You were the one I knew it, but I blew it, yeah You were the one You can put the blame on me The seemingly different soliloquy and musical act are in fact the same, comparing political helplessness with interpersonal failure.
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Not that you're a patriot or a nationalist or one of those Afghans who walk around in a pakol and kameez and play the tabla and claim that their favorite singer is Ahmad Zahir, but the fact that nineteen-eighties Afghanistan is the final setting of the most legendary and artistically significant gaming franchise in the history of time made you all the more excited to get your hands on it, especially since you've been shooting at Afghans in your games (Call of Duty and Battlefield and Splinter Cell) for so long that you've become oddly immune to the self-loathing you felt when you were first massacring wave after wave of militant fighters who looked just like your father.
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If you've never had a good time amid the alcoholic gloomfest that is "The Iceman Cometh" — especially before the salesman Hickey arrives and livens up the joint — well, neither had I. Assigning each act of O'Neill's play to a different lead artist, "The Iceman Lab" has come up with four distinctive results, all borrowing text from the original: [ Target Margin tackled Eugene O'Neill's "Mourning Becomes Electra" earlier this year ] Julia Sirna-Frest's sonically gorgeous Act I, in which each song (composed by Shane Chapman and Ms. Sirna-Frest) is named for at least one of the play's characters; Yuris Skujins's Act II, the most straightforwardly faithful to O'Neill and also the least successful; Katie Rose McLaughlin's Act III, an anesthetized five-woman dance piece, in which Harry's fear-laden walk is the dramatic high point; and Jeanette Oi-Suk Yew's consistently inventive Act IV, which combines puppetry and video with Merlin Whitehawk's startling, intense, even gymnastic live performance of Hickey's self-loathing confession.
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